Rape my heart

Silly boy

2010-07-18T08:34:00.000-07:00

Gekpeng, haven't been blogging much! D: Bad girl! Sorry thou. Anyway. Days have been pretty much FINE^^ Studies.Alien.Family. (: It's all that pretty much matters to me for the time being. ;D
Yeahzx, I'm studying superior hard nowadays! Ohwell! I'm really dying to excel in my studies & follow up on my plans <3
Atually I've got nothing much to talk about. I h8 you (V) Fuckyou & I wanna KILL YOU! (: Motherfucker.

Peaceout
Baibai, I'm thinking of you. ALIEN <3

Maybe you have torn my scar up

2010-06-11T23:16:00.001-07:00

Haven't been blogging much, Sorry. I've neglected you bloggy D: Well the stupid blogger should have a app called 'Blogger' for iphone! HAHA! I'm just lazy to blog since I'm useig iPhone now. Anyway but, Life I'm living have still been okay. Only that I've been doing really stupid things. Which i wouldn't like to talk about it.
Anyway buts. I <3 Kenneth Tan Dog manzx!
I <3 Vincent Lim, Nephew. Denzel
I want to go malaysia shopping with family again!
& I lost someone i love. D: Guess all i can say is bye.
Alien & i are still being loved. Nothing much to talk about atually. BYES!

Peaceout
Motherfuckers!

MAYDAY @ DT

2010-05-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

Haven't been posting much, Anyone miss me? Guess not? HGAHAHAH! I don't expect anyone to read my blog! HAHAHA! Just me & me! YAY! Days have been just normally SUCK! (: & Yupp, just like maybe a min ago i fought with my mom. So yeah, Mommy. This is for you _|_ FUCK YOU BITCH!
Okay, when to downtown the whole day today. As they was celebrating Mayday < Something like another labour day! So yeah, Actually nothing much. Early in the morning. Got up meet up with some friends. & When over to WILD WILD WET! (: Saw Darling, Bratt!^^, Taufiq, Kim, & Fazz! Good news good news! Jon is coming back on MONDAY! YAY! (: Yupps, Sunbrunt was alright! Their like seriously FUCK HEAPS OF PEOPLE! So left in 3 hours time. When on to the event fair, played games & just waste my time around. Had our lunch. & Those mascot. Some their like effing friendly some, are just Plain jane i would say? But their cool. So overall today was alright^^
I don't really have much to talk about & I've really gotten use to use my iPhone & so now my typing on keyboard sucks! So i hate typing on Keyboard now! HAHAHA! Imy, CYHST!

Peaceout,
mY NEW TALL FREAK FRIEND (:

I Iove CYHST

2010-05-18T20:36:00.000-07:00

Haven't been posting much due to exams :x well today was my last paper. I eekon I should be doing it fine? As for the rest, (....) I'm speechless over it. Hahahaha! Anyway buts. I'm on my to mustafa now;x god damn camera is ruining my days!
Okay I'm not in the mood for any talks now.

Peaceout
I love alien darling^^

Afond boutique spa

2010-05-08T23:15:00.000-07:00

Currently at afond boutique spa(: hopefully mom is enjoying this treat I'm giving her. There's a manicure treatment here as well. But there isn't any samples on their products!! It's tempting me so bad yet I'm doubting their skills. well what can I do? I should be at spa elements now :c but because of mommy work timing I didn't make an appointment now it's all booked *pout* I can't blame anyone but myself I guess. I'm thinking if I should take afond boutique spa as our permentent spa area but the consultant :x idk, she's just giving me that kind of feeling. Uncomfortable! Well, I'll ask mom how it goes then :x of notspa element will b a better choice for me^^ alright, actually this pot is nonsense as I'm waiting for mom to finish her full body massae treatment. So this will keep me company. Lucky I've got an iPhone. If not I'll seriously die! :s
oh yes, alien have not contacted me:c hope his fine maybe his at home sleeping, or maybe his just busy I guess?? Oh well all I can do Is to wait don't I? School is tomorrow & I'll have to go back to the exams attitude! Which totally suck! But what else can I do?? I have to finish my O's asap to leave this country! Good luck to me I reckon? These days I just hate shook life. Maybe after two years time I do get to leave I'll just leave school life behind(: starting a new will be something good & something that would maybe make me happier^^

peaceout
I miss you alien.

ALIEN ALIEN

2010-05-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

Having some problems with my iphone D: OMG my hjeart hurts D: These days days is so not good for me! :X Shit crap, as for baby as ewell. I only hope everything will be fine for you okay? I love you baby,
Haven't been in any mood for anything.

Peaceout,
Baby i love you

2010-05-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

Days just pass fine,
I wouldn't like to talk much about it.
Event held for four days, Thrusday till sunday.
As for today I'm on my break. Was suppose to collect my pay-,-
But boss was a fucked up asshole! So yep i've quit!^^ Not say i don't have other jobs.
School tomorrow, Time table follow up on fridays.
Talk to alien already^^ HAPPY
Living fine.
Only missing this certain someone,
Yet i hate you. I hate how much you've hurt me.
Planning to leave this country by 17.

Peaceout,
Blog soon

Motherfucking bored:x

2010-04-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

School today was tiring, let me try to flash back. I didn't go for morning run today reason being I'm still sick. So seat through out on the parade square with silver huang. It was stupid reckon? It was all werid conversations we had. Afterwhch was d&t i bought a freaking car Jack for d&t. Proud if myself *patpat* ^^ but mr wong was really about to kill me I guess? Hahaha I was an white elephant^^
I know it something stupid but nvm as long as there's a elephant in it. Follow up classes I don't remember I only know that I had Chinese I did my oral as per usual I suck
at reading Chinese charaters. Chemistry studied studied :/ English was nothing much reason being it was only half an hour. Recess was opening the culinary EM hamper^^ thanks people<: maths was learning SD thingy. Rush home wanted to go for check
up yet clinc wasn't open. So head to work straight. & now I'm just am walking home ^^ free work which was crap ass tired:x home I'll be doing my revision & sleep sleep. until now I hope you could call :c Im so scared yay you've forgotten me :c

peace out
work tomorrow again :x

When will you be free?

2010-04-25T20:27:00.000-07:00

Alien haven't been calling? All I guess is that his busy I reckon? Oh well what else can I do? Just wait I guess, all I only hope or you could say wish would be you not forgetting me D: anyway buts, I only hope that you're all fine^^
okay back to ME!
Hahahha, okay I'm like smiling but for god sake i'm not anywhere happy D:
I'm currently at the clinic. Q line is fking long & i'm having the gastric pain in my tummy, those who frequently have got gastric pain should understand that I guess?? Arghhhhhh body aching & all the shit. I aeriosuly can't effort to have all this illnesses on me @ this period of time! Exams are comming up, work for this week! & for my dealing of cars job my bloody boss remind me to go get my pay yet his not telling me when nor even the location like WTF?!? But maybe you're busy? Because of office. Yet you're a boss, I don't this is how you should run things /; I have a life too for my pay aswell!! -,- where's my pay!!! Arghhhhhh! Lucky at the moment i've got others jobs to cover up-,- still I'm not liking the way you're acting as a boss-,- even though you're busy!!! Piss me off!!
Forget him now, I miss school :c how to catch up on work how how how!?!?!?

Peaceout
hope everything will soon be fine

Craving for ice cream!

2010-04-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

Currently, @Nana's! Fking bored! I mean like seriously bored! Okay? Trust me? In the morning i missed my swimming as it was raining so fked up_|_ Likewise didn't had the chance to see brad D: Miss you luhh fker! :c
Wanted to bike with brother in the end but the fking weather decided to rain so thanks huh?! So all i did was sleep sleep sleep. Was actually excited to go over to Nan's but as expected it will be boring! D: Crap shit! D: All i do @ Nana's is only Iphone Iphone iphone! :c I miss alien sseirously i miss alien D": How i wish you could come out from camp D; next week i don't even know if i could go over to look for you D: as i should be working _|_ mtfking ass! -,- Nevermind then I'll try to look for a way to stay at your place okaty? Okay I'm retard talking to myself. I'll return this pc back to my cosuins now D:

Peaceout

2010-04-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

ALIEN I MISS YOU :'(
Pointers i reckon would be easier
*Waking over & over again.
*Insomnia
*Breakfast
*Wanted to go for a bike with brother. Yet raning
*Home now,
*Waiting for mom
*Going to nana's
*Wanting someone.

Peaceout
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIJAH SUCKERXSX

Unhappy

2010-04-24T03:36:00.000-07:00

Recently, my house is a chaos. Like Thailand. I mean always there's chaos but not this serious but hey swriosly mom you're not always right & likewise dad, mom is your wife not maid! Stop yelling at her. You guys only show me that this family is full of nonsense & unhappiness. I don't understand I seriously don't, maybenits better that you guys divours since you both dislike each other so much! I hate it when the stress you both are giving. Serious talk, I hate you both! I really do, every day now I only wish that inwasnt born. But I've got to admit hat is there to complain when I'm already here suffering? All I can do is try to be happy I guess.
I just wish for everyone to be happy, I just wish that everyone to appreciate everything they have why is it like this? I hate you adults! You are the ones that ruin our teenage life & that's why we now days are rebellious, & now you guys are blaming us? Grow up!!! Fking adults!

Maybe all my peace wanting are bullshit!

Runaway

2010-04-22T23:36:00.001-07:00

Good morning there(:,
Actually i've got alot to typed! But while waiting for photos to upload i just got so not interested in blog! :x So now I'm currently watching 'Shane Dawson' Tv! ^^ It's awesome! I <3 him ttm! Yipp, & yeah school have been great I'm studying real hard! Going for a nap soon, or maybe to watch some cartoons? Currently on Nick it's playing [Fairly odd parents]

Peaceout
Ps, this photos are pictures taken last week with my beloved brother @ the fish farm!

Presurise

2010-04-22T16:15:00.000-07:00

Good morning to all^^ I'm about to gigot asembly now:x on th journey to school was a terrible trip_|_ I fucking hate the presure that my parents give me thinking that I work & so i owe them money! If that's the case are you asking me to rob ppl? Or even the bank! I fucking hate this stress, schools studies & this shit! Thanks har! I hate you both seriously! I wish I wasn't born so I won't owe you so much! One day I'll pay you every penny to clear off this debt that I gave you I promise it here! All the milk power fee or whatever shit I'll return it back since you both live money so much! -,- I hate to be here in that house! I hate it so much, it's nothing but fight & money!

Fuck off

HAPPY BITRHDAY BITCHES*

2010-04-22T00:49:00.000-07:00

Here are all the pictures some seriously are ugly ( I ment myself ) But who cares? All that matter are the two bitches enjoyed thier birthday! I love you, Renee & ya ting! Mwah!

This will be for Zhang Ya ting Birthday!

Alright this will all be Renee Kwek Birthday photos!

This are the photos for this week, Both my crazy bitches birthday once again wish your wish will all come true, & also for you to always to healthy & happy!
I just noticed that i haven't blog up th pictures where i when to the fish farm last week. I'll upload it tomorrow(:
<3

Peaceout!

Yay, I'm in love with alien!

2010-04-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

Firstly I would apologise that I haven't been uoloading pictures I've just reached pasir ris area walking towards my brother child care center :x But I'll be meeting mommy for lunch(: YAY!! Hahaha, school today have been very productive I would say, cause I'm
studying!! Laughs, oh yes I've got a
heaps of pictures to upload, I'll uploaded it when I'm home okie dokie? Grrr, yipp that's about all. should be going back to sky tomorrow, I can't take it but miss them too much, alien can't come out this week:c whcj means I'll miss you like heaps!! ): yet the only thing I wish from you is for you to be safe & healthy! No more smokes yeah? Heheheh, th will be all at the momment, I'll upload pictures soon dearest!
I'll go mum mum now,

peaceout
I want alien forever! ^^

Loving Alien more & more each day!

2010-04-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

YAY! I'm on iPhone blogging!! Isn't it cool!?!?!? Well to me it is alright? This is my freaking 1st time doing such, well the reason why I'm still up at this time is because darling called! I slept at the time of 8.45pm :x I was really tired, but when darling called I'm so happy & excited! Can't wait to see you next week! Aww miss you already!! Haha, I know I suppose to be sleeping now but you just makes me go hyper!! I know I'm stuipd :c grrr, well I'm tired & I want to sleep with you. Goodnight now people & my dearest!!
Misses you,
-Gekpeng, xoxo

Frankly speaking

2010-04-16T09:38:00.000-07:00

School today ends @ 11. &Yes i was still ill. but what can i do? D: Anyways, after school head towards punggol plaza to get Bubble tea for Diyanah & check out some stuff in the pet store.
Head down to west plaze waited for mom & head straight home(: Slept for an hour, off to bugis. On the way to bugis saw diyanah as she was heading to Tanjon aight @ bugis staton bye diydiy^^ Walk around & had our fun with mommy^^
Afterwhich meet up with daddy & lit bro. @Tampanies, continued with our shopping^^ &of course had our dinner[:
Reached home @ the time of 10 to 11.
Watched Paris Hilton & my new bff season 1 on the net.
& Now I'm blogging & also downloading apps in to my iPhone. Had my medicine feeling drowsiness :x
Alright my download should be done in any minute now.
Goodnight bitches!
Oh yes before i forgets HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR JIAN FENG

peaceout
I'm a dirty old man

Monster misses Alien

2010-04-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

This is a picure i caught in Dawn facebook, Well From the left it's Dawn & of course I'm in the middle, likewise beside me was Nura. Photographer was Joshua! It was fun working in Sky roadshow But sad to say, I'm not working there currently. Seriously miss those fun time D: Well, hope i cold go back soon. Should be working as a PA soon, for some reason i just feel very uncomfortable working as it? Oh well, What else can i do? Anyway but, Sorry that I've not been updating my blog. Maybe to me it's already out of trend to blog? HAHA!?
& Yes I'm still loving my new toy, but i just can't wait for my 'go' card & so my iphone will be fully used! (: I've been terribly sick like baby, but i only wish that you could recoever soon as you're going to through a tougher way. D:
I've eaten my medicine, as doctor tan? ( I've forgotten him ) Called & check on me, for some reason he just knows that i got my mirgane recked up again ): & Yeah thanks to whoever that told him, Now i've to eat my medicine if not I'll see him !! ( I don't miss you doc go away ) EEEyerrrr! HAHAHAH,
Yupp, Nothing much to talk about anyway, I've missed school for the pass two days due to my gastric flu & reck up migrane. D: Should be going to school tomorrow as i have to catch up on my school work^^
Hopefully I'll feel better soon,
& Of course feeling bored so I've been watching 'Paris Hilton & my new bff 1 & 2' It's awesome c; @ Least it could keep me company.
Alright I've got nothing much to typed about now, I'll get my rest. I hope baby is missing me? (: I don't expect much though.
Goodnight love ones! Oh yes a new update, I'm a new fan of Three 6 Mafia

Peaceout
I'm a dirty old man

Almost everything

2010-04-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

Weather have been horrible, everyone have been complianing & blamming the sun the weather but have anyone thought that who did all this? I wouldn't dare to complain much as i know i did all this too.
Anyway, Days have been fine i love alien! (: YAY! 09April2010 ^^ Glad that those days are over^^
School today are alright, Oh yes did i mention? I'm in the iPhone club now hahahah (: & Yes I'm miss sky fitness alot, i think mostly likely I'll be heading over soon? I can't take it! HAHAHAH (: & Yes, i Just did my d&t. Didn't revice my physic maybe later tonight? Or tomorrow morning?
I don't really have anything much to post about, Days have been screwed up atm because I've got no job comming up D: Well, hopefully things will get better (:

Peaceout
I love alien, whole heartly!

Amend

2010-04-09T17:55:00.001-07:00

I've got back with my forever closers friend with just a few simple words.
Like what i've told her. The only reason that we didn't talk is because i needed sometime to melt back down. But for you, Syameem. You seriosuly have got no rights to comment anything. Okay? & What the fuck, you read my blog & talk shit about me? -,- LAME okay? Seriosuly, if you've anything unsatisfied with everything i typed over here then come into my face & speak to me.
Thanks to you, you ruined Nandini & my friendship towards her more. I though you'll be like everyone out ther not being a busy body Yet i was wrong. You're the most fucking sly & cunning person I've ever since. No one in secondary 1 people treat you like that. Yet i still regard you as a friend.
But no more alright-,- You're too scary. & Yes bare this in mind, everything that you've posted on the new regardless of MSN, facebook or eve blog. I can't even be bothered to read & entertain. but sadly to say, people just tends to tell me what you typed. & That's Why I've got so agitated!
Likewise, my last word for you is MYOB! (:

School, yesterday sucks! As i scolded my own love ones. Because of whoever. i wouldn't like to talk about it anymore. As I'm already back with my love. As for the story I'll take it as a end. & For people who is still unsatisfy with the ending, it's either you talk about it without letting me to hear from anywhere. Or you just simply shut the fuck up.
& To my dearest Nandini, I can still hear things. but for now, I would just want to forget about it. & Hopefully, we won't fight anymore. I'm actually happy that we've got back. But, I'm still doubting. Yet i don't want to cause any trouble within our friendship anymore. So i won't say anything alright. Studies, was okay. Had maths test for the radian part, i really have got the confidence in it. The rest, I could only pray i reckon? After school, wae was suppose to go for chemistry extra class, & from what we've heard. It was cancelled. So we all left, & head striaght home to get prepared for wild wild wet trip ^^
It was fun being with my classmates. But yesm as for what you people know. My class (...) so I ain't no gonna care about it. HAHAHA! Well, afterwhich. I ditch my friend because i had to end things up. I'm so sorry alright? I'm here to Apologise! I'm really sorry that i didn't join you guys for dinner. Sorry, well afterwhich. Darling called & he said'YES' OMG! I was like so happy!!! hehehehehehehehehhehe! Well, now all i wish is that you'll recover soon alright? DR Ng here (: HAHAHAH!
Was with colleuge yesterday talking shit, drinking, & smokes. Got god sake, in the middle of the night please don't scare me! D: When come, & ust sleep straight. I just practically collapse! -,- I'm fucked i know! HAHAHA, But it doesn't matter. i had my fun (: wooooooooooo! '
& Now, so early in the mornign I'm having a big head pain! D: now i'm blamming myself for last night shit D: Well, Im a complicated skank! HAHAHA!
Alright, Today noon should be going out with Renne to suntec. Afterwhich, meeting up colleuge to help me to get my iphone done properly (:
This should be all for this post now, I'll blog later or something other time ^^

Peaceout
Hopefully everything will turn out better. Sincew I've just strike you out ^^

Oh yes before i go, Thankyou for Daniel. Who is sweet enough to care & pray for me. That I'll be happyier(: It's really sweet of you. & Yes i understand that you're in Australia thats why you couldn't do much but pray. & Yes! I appreciated it! (: Thankyou brother!

A little too fucked up

2010-04-06T00:40:00.000-07:00

Life is simply plain without work D: Well what can i do? Study-,- B-O-R-I-N-G!
School today was as per normal i reeckon. Just got home from central. Met mom over there after school straight.
Anyways, Can't wait till i get my pay for last month. Likewise, I can't wait for Another Road show. Also if anyone is interested in going to the gym contact me?! I got a promotion goging for just 30dollars you can have a 14days of Membership!
If you're not interested persuade your friends to join & Refer them to me! If the deal is close you'll be able to earn a $2.50 per person!
HELP HELP HELP! (:

Peaceout,
Days are just being Bleh to me

Random

2010-04-05T08:03:00.001-07:00

School have been alright,
Friendship, have showed me alot,
relationship, It's just complicated,
Fiance, have always been something stressful,
& To someone, I miss you. I just wish you were all mine.
Today school as per normal, Yes i totally forgot about Pe D:
After school, head home. Rot! & When to have high tea with mom. Fecth brother after school had our dinner & studied. Was chatting with franky! ^^ Really happy, as it's been sometime. Somemore his in England If I'm not mistaken.
Well, Life have been simply plain for me these days. Because work is slowly lightening up. But for some problems. Their just stressful to talk about. Well, all i could hope is that you'll be mine CYHST!
Stiil waiting for some words from you,

Peaceout,
I simply need you

Didn't expect

2010-04-03T18:32:00.000-07:00

Alright, actually yesterday didn't go well as it when. Wanted to meet yonghan but raining so cock up:x Nevermind. & I would like to say, In the afternoon because i was heading to the pool i saw a fucker(: Yupp, @ Night i met Jon up, chit chat for only a while. Sorry, & Was heading down to my friend Chalet, i wouldn't want to say name already. It was raining i still when dow being drench. Then your chalet is at some Bungolo( Idk how to spell can?) Yuppyupp, afterwards, i ask you come over to fetch me. & There you are telling me to go back? Cause you don't know how to come out & fecth me with it's just raining alittle? FUCK UP! Seriously, I don't know what kind of friend you are. To treat people like that. Whatever it is, Luckily, Fazz was on duty & james again. So, @ Least i got accompany. When home alone, with Martin to talk with. Thanks huh^^ We talked through the whole night, which was seriously entertaining. ;D
Shouyld be going for a swim soon, To the friend of mine. I really doubt everything you had ever said to me. _|_ this is for you. FUCK! Things haven't been going right, Relationship is a Bold! Fazz, I don't know what you want, i seriously don't. maybe soon, If this shit just continue I will move on. I can't take this shit.
Friendship, I don't really likes to stick with one close friend i jump everywhere around so I'm cool. Only to that fucker, You showed me everything on why i don't have close friends. Because friends are just pathetic name(:
Family, They've screwed me inside out. So I'm totaly dead @ Home.
School, Is simply good. At least i got my Bibi with me. ^^
Fiance is still the same D: I've got nothing much to say but to work hard & work
School work, Their all just stressful.
I'll get going now, No matter what. I still believe that i still likes you. CYHST.

Peaceout,
Alone is simply the best

I am a happy girl

2010-04-03T02:59:00.001-07:00

weeeehooo! Awesome day today! (: Morning suppose to go for a swim but didn't manage to wake up:x As i didn't sleep weel last night, So when for a swim @ around 1plus. Swam & Fasomething something with on duty so yeah, don't care^^ HAHAH! & Yes please, I'm not FAT D: Aftwards Taufooo was on duty! Seriously you're NOISY! Arghhh, & yes thanks for asking me to get out of the poool, just ebcause of the fucking shorts i have D: Nevermind! HAHAHA, Next EEE Something something & james was on duty but i had to go so yeah! It was fun though, sorry brother that I couldn't accompany you to the pool. Met mommy for lunch & head home. Now should be going out to meet yonghan for dinner ^^ Afterwhich will be heading down to Chalet for party(: YOOOHOOOO! Tomorrow, will be out for cycling with Nandini(:

I love you babe! ;D

Paceout
How low can you go?

Meaningless

2010-04-02T03:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY
, How is everyone day doing? Good?^^ Well, happy for you. My good friday just simply suck?! People may think that going to work on the good friday just suck. But what I'm thinking currently is just the opposite.
Have been rotting @ home with my family. My famiy seriosuly have got no life?! Trust me they don't^^ Okay? What the fuck?! It's the fucking holiday & all the do is sleep, fight & play computer?! -,- For god sake?! I should have just when out without even thinking of them throwing them alone at home this is what the wanted don't they?! _|_ I have nothing in common with the fucking shit hole family seriosuly i don't/ If you don't know how to run a happ family. They stay away from me being happy with me life! Ever since my work break i hate life! I really hate it! All thanks to you guys!
Can't wait till tomorrow chalet, finally IU'm out of this house1 I can't take this shit

Peaceout
My family is a fuck up family

I hearts Adam Lambert

2010-03-31T18:43:00.000-07:00

APRIL FOOLS DAY!Location, D&t studio
Listening to, Taio Cruz No other one.
Doing, Reasearch on Car Jack. & Blogging.
Moood, Sick & body aching.
School is just awell the same. After school there's extra lesson for Geography. ^^
I've been feeling superior unwell. But who cares? Whatever it is, i can't be bothered! All thanks to my 'Beloved mom' _|_
After d&t, it'll be english. I really wonder how will my day be, since I'm getting worst & worst every single day.
Tomorrow, will be 'Good friday' Should go over to church but i got work, so forget it! :x Work at 11 to 7pm. & Should be heading down to Dt for Nandini. As she opens a chalet. On the sunday, Morning will be going for a swim as per usual. & To meet Nandini in the Pasir ris beach. Hopefully, my feverish head will soon to be gone. & All my trouble. :X Haven't been living well like those days, But i know I'll be standing straight up again^^
I'll be going back to my reasearch now.
Takecares,

Peaceout,
Maybe we just can't work out

I shouldn't have

2010-03-31T01:30:00.000-07:00

I got three regrets ever since i chnaged my attitude & my mind set.
It's kiunda like starting a new & these are my 1st few things i regret doing. I won't be stating it here. But yeah, I just deeply regret. All i can say is, i shouldn't have told you i should have done that & i shouldn't had t say 'yes'.
I'm just disappointed, stress & don't know what i should do. Seriously i don't i need a shoulder, yet i know that relying on myself is better then others. i have no one to rely on either. I'm a disappointment don't i?
I shouldn't have to pay for my N level exams. I shouldn't have even to go to schoo, Since i'm such a loser to you.
Yet let me ask you, Do you even know me well enough to be called as my mom? have you even take the chance to understand & listen to your child? Never mind it doesn't matter. I won't bother you anymore, I will NEVER tell you anything. You was the only shoulder i rely on, Now you're out. I'm not going to say much but just to keep it all in myself.
i would say i hate life, but what is there to hate? It only hurt myself but not others. Yes, Those are my words. I'll life for myself & not others. From now on nothing will stop me from going anywhere doing whateer i believe in.
Life is just unfair, that's all i know. I will always love what i have & who i am.

Peaceout,
Even though i dislike it so bad, but i know there's no use towards it. Yet I'm crying over here. ( There's no use crying over a spilled milk )

Should i consider you as mine?

2010-03-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

Alright, have been sick lately! I shall elaborate yesterday & likewise for today. Yesterday, When to school wioth a sickish mood :x When home straight after school. Change & when out to amk. When over to my office & wanted to head over to Paya lebar for another job. But due to that i was sick, Mom convince me not to. So yeah, Called it off. Meet baby at bugis. Which took me ages for me to wait for him! ;@ *Evelyn, ANGRY*! Hahaha! Had food at Geylang, & too a cab, head home. Within the after food part, something happen. Which was like effing funny. But i shall not say, Gua! (: As for today. School have been awesome as per usual, But the school is so not punctual-,- They release us all late for half an hour. & I was late for work for half an hour! Thanks huh?! Greendale secondary, this is how you guys taught us to be ppunctual? -,- WTF?! After school, when straight to work, work was boring in the 1st place. But after work, I stay in the gym for like an hour, talking, laughing & also eating our Low fat cheese cake! HAHAHa!, After wards, took bus home. & Here i am. Feeling freaking sick & stress over the fucking N LEVEL! I fucking hate school! :x What the fuck, making us pay all this shit?! I don't have all this fucking money! Fuck! :/

Peaceout,
FUCK

I doubt you,

2010-03-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

Update for yesterday.
Afterwork, when over to plaza sing meet up martin (: just when for a short walk, as he need to buy some sutff. Afterwards when to, downtown. Met fazz up^^ & Walked home together.
As for today, early morning. When to cementary. Which was like seriously alot of tomb stone to go to. Total of 6 tomb stone. & 3Different places :x Last one was seriously cool, as when had to walk right into the forest.
When over to nana's place, slept & when home.(: Did school work, sms fazz & jon. When over to have dinner. But i didn't had any. Saw Uncle & aunty. with Benji, super suoer excited! (:
ome now, I'm feeling very very sick D: Which i hate hate hate ! Just finish my school work now.

Peaceout,
I don't trust you

SKY FITNESS!

2010-03-27T03:42:00.001-07:00

Location, Work place ( Sky fitness ) Anyone interested? $30 for 2 weeks? Or work with me? With a $2.50 per course sold? Whatever, just random shit! BORED BORED BORED! Road show is close :x Have been rotting in the gym for the past 2hours?! Can anyone undertsand that pain?! Whatever it is, meeting Martin & fazz Later on! WEEHOOO
Nothing much to post, -,- Shitty bored?!

Peaceout,
kill me

Should i strike you out?

2010-03-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

Wonders, thoughts, ignores!
(:
School was fine today, was studying really hard^^ Which I'm really happy for myself. & Yes to all teachers, who is teaching me. Honestly i didn't listen to the class nor even studying. But I'll be here promising myself that I'll study hard for my better future for the future i want. I just hope that I've not let you gave up on me.
If you did not I'm thankful. (L)
Like what i said. School is all cool.
School ended at 12.30pm. Head down to Punggol plaza with Diydiy. Chat & ate our lunch. Nandini came along half way through, when over to her House & played with her hammy's! Their C-U-T-E! Time flies when we're having fun. Reached back to CCA at the time of 5pm :x Even pass out parade we're late:x W-T-F right? Well, it doesn't matter. Being late is my signature i reckon? ;o Left at the time of 5.45pm. Yeah CCA for freaking 45min pathetic right? yeahyeah whatever! When home changed & when for a swim with family. ^^ Fazz was on duty! ARGHH! Cute sia him! Love him ttm! (:
Must go jalan jalan with me soon huh?! GAH! (: When over to central Had curry fish head, with family. & Now here i am. H-O-M-E! (: Sming that bodoh fuzz :x Will be going back to read my book & ZzZzzZzZZzz. ^^
Working tomorrow, hope jonny would come over find me for lunch? Idk! (:

Peaceout,
I doesn't matter.

Are you back?

2010-03-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

Not knowing that you're back now already or not. But yeah, I really wonder what is there to be waiting? I mean like. Not because i want to move on, It's that maybe i don't have time for such? Well, I'll follow the flow i reckon? Today have been good i suppose. I wouldn't like to elaborate anything much about it. But it's all good (:

Peaceout,
Saga

Pathetic company

2010-03-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

Everything is so screwed up today, But without fear I'll get things done by tomorrow^^ & Please. To this certain vet in Bedok south Ave. Seriously aren't you guy pathetic enough? WTF. The cost for an animal fees is not cheap i would accept that. But hey, I was only late for 5mins & you want to charge me fucking 50dollars?! :@ I when Pasir ris down to bedok south just to get my poor hamster teeth trim! & Please your fucking doctor there is such a fucker! Usually i can visit the vet 3weeks once. But within this 1 to 2 weeks I've to be back :x _|_ & This is what you called a vet? Even better i have to pay-,- With such qualilty-,- Please fucked up! Let me tell you this. This is siongapore it might be a Urban city but it's not for you to suck citizens money! -.- Alright? & Yes you call yourself a vet, a burse? For such attitude? Please not say i don't have the money to pay you. Is that you are not worth that qualitly of yours to be paid! Okay? I just came back from that fucking place:x Which is like (wtf)! My mom & i, tried to trim her tooth & yes we did it! :x To you doctors out there, who grab my hamster & made my hamster also ( strunggle & die ) Or cut until my hamster bleed. Fuck you all! _|_ what a motherfuckers you are.
(whatever) Now, I'll chnage the subject. Today, nothing is running smoothly. But yet, I'm thinking in a positive way. Which is what i enjoy life most about. So yes! I believe tomorrow, will be better then any day I've spended.
I'll be doing up my d&T. & Likewise for my English now.

Goodnight love one.
Peaceout,
You're coming back in, 8 to 9 hours time! I miss you! D:

I miss you, bloggy

2010-03-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

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Shopping for food^^

Food. (@Qy BBQ)

Ladies

Renee & i

Afiq & i

Jacinta & i

After kite flying, Resting. Playing poker. FORFIT! :/

Renee & i

Darren & i

Us, all <3!

Kite flying

Renee & Myself

Walking up to Marina Barrage ( Grass area )

Nigel, Jacinta & myself

Jacinta

Renee

Myself & Mr penguin kite

Jacinta & Nigel sorting out how to build the kite :3 Cute or what!

Afiq building the kite.

Darren & Nigel

Jacinta, Darren & Nigel

Gorgeous Jacinta

Darrem Uncle

Afiq & Renee

Renee & Darren

The only girls, who came.

Darren

Renee, eating with her mouth wide. Caught red handed^^

Jacinta

Awesome man!

Was raining so gathered at Marina MRT.

Back to GDLSS^^ Last day of camp.

@City hall. On the way back to ECP. Got dare to take picture with this kind forige man by Renee.

On the way back to ECP.

On the way up to NgeeNan Poly

On the way out of singapore poly. Met this cute guy^^ Krist.

Singapore poly

Indoor camp

About to leave the school. Where the outdoor camp starts.

Camp, 1st stop! If I'm not wrong, we're in Nan Yang polytechnic.

Finally my pc is running as tough as it's new! ^^ Well, i would like to apologise again, for not blogging much now a days. Reason being. I've been very busy at work & school. Like mad busy! Still, i love it! Everyday i live with no regrets but with the word ' Meaningful ' Now I'll try to keep up with my blog too yeah? Today I suppose i'll have a huge picture spam & words :x The pictures are from class outing @ Marina Barrage. On the 15 of march. School camp, AKTLG! ( The pictures are not all in yet. As Miss lee pei ni is still being very draggy! ) & Of course BBQ @ Qian yi house. On the 20 March. Enjoy the pictures yeah^^

Beautiful days

2010-03-17T18:07:00.000-07:00

Ever since my camp day I've been neglecting my blog D: I'm sorry bloggy D: Actually, I didn't really neglect it for like porposly. Reason being I've got no time, & when i have the time I go very sleepy & grumpy.Like for now, I've to rush & shower but i decided to just blog for a little. Quick one alright? Camp & marina pictures will be uploaded ASAP! ( Sorry for the inconvinent )2Days 1 Night camp was on the 11 March to 12 maarch. It was really meaningful. I simply love it to the max! 13 March i had a family chalet, didn't stay because we some reasons to it. Which is confidential ro Downtown East Resort. 14 March was a day for me to relax.^^ 15 March had a class outing. Attendance was a total disappointment. But it was awesome fun! 16 March, I when to school to get my D&t Folder. Afterwards when for a swim with Nema^^ @ Dt! I saw fazz!!! I miss him!! HAHAHA! When over to bugis with mom to shop for some stuff.
17 March, ( Which was yesterday ) Morning when for a swim with bro & started working at 11.30am @ Harbofront. ^^It was alright. Met up Nandini for Media Pod & accompanied her for dinner. Head home afterwards.
As for today It'll all be a mystery! <3! vBut i know I'll live everyday with no regrets buyt to learn something new.
Blog soon^^

Peaceout,
Sorry for all the typo. I really have got no time. Do understand^^
xoxo!

So far so good

2010-03-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

I've accomplish most of the things I've plan^^ I only left 2 more (: Which is to fetch my mom & of course finish up my 'Greek Civilization' book. Still thinking of tonight dinner [ Hmms ] Anyway opinion? Or should i just treat & out for buffet? ;D
Tomorrow, Class 4a3 & 3a3'09 class will be having outing ^^ Hopefully there will be more people. But yeah, Our class is (..) HAHA! I'll try to get photos for tomorrow yeah? There's nothing much in my mind now actually, Should be calling matze up later tonight. ^^v I'll update a little more later tonight.

Peaceout,
I'm missing you like crazy!

I reckon

2010-03-13T09:46:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the boring poses. As my pc is a little retard these days. :x Should be getting a lappy asap, reason being i need to finish up my d&t.
I know it's still very very early to be back. 2am. For some reason can't ton in chalet ): All i can say is *SPOOKY*!HAHAH! Well, tomorrow. Will be my resting day? Which i reckon I'll hate it bad! Maybe? Yeah, Chalet was fun, Sorry didn't get any pictures are i was too busy eating D: Daniel called along the way, & i was really happy. Talked for an hour or so. Which was really, Fun, & CRAZY! HAHAHA! Well, thanks for calling though(:
My plan for today, Like in the morning morning. When normal human beings wake up would be. Making breakfast or lunch if i could get up in time.
Start working, [Target, 200 Clients], Call up matze, send SMS to the whole class about outing on monday, Fetch mommy home, Finish up my story book & hopefully being able to cook for dinner if not, OUT?! Oh well, Hope it will be a smooth day tomorrow, but also fun? Everyday without fun i just feel like sleeping :x Any or so, if i could i better rush my school work by tomorrow, or tuesday. If not i don't have time already. Alright now, Talk more later tonight.

Peaceout
11 More days! I really miss you

CRAZY 2WEEKS!

2010-03-12T04:23:00.000-08:00

Have been having school camp which was crazy awesome will upload all pictures up on wednesday or the week after next week alright? This week is the best week i ever had & of course hopefully all my busy days for next week will likewise be the same^^ I currently now, don't have time to blog much nor even upload the pictures. Bare with it okay? Soon^^Reason being, I'm going out now;D Camps over D: I want more! Chalet is next ^^ Can't wait! Alright will get going now, KRIST *BLUSHES*
I'm hyper! I know, Slept for 1 and a half hours with Renee at ECP. Which we had already (..) Again to each other. before bed. Still I'm holding on :x H-Y-P-E-R! S
Still special thanks to, De jun (DJ Coach), Prema (Storm Coach) & Mabel Coach!

Peaceout,
Krist.Krist.Krist.Krist!

Timecheck, 11.23pm 12March 2010.
Woooolalala just got home^^ Even though the time was short but i had fun ^^ Now I'm dead tired. Have to prepare for things tomorrow :x Gua! Got Breezer's :s
It's been so long since you're gone. Look at the days, you still have 12more days to be back. Which is like, you've only been gone for 3days. To me it was misreable 3weeks already D: Come back now, & I would just like to say 'I miss you' D:
No matter what just be safe (: Come back home in a full piece ;D Feeling tired & blurry now. But will only be sleeping at the time of 2am :x Good luck to me!
Will post tomorrow. I got some pictures already. But due to not let those picture clash i will post it like what i said before. Either next week or the week after.

Peaceout,
Goodnight darling. (Specially for you) Even though you should be an hour slower only.

Tonight have just been ruined

2010-03-09T06:05:00.001-08:00

My life is never the same, my life is just like thin air. It comes & go.
Ever since you ELIJAH JOHN CORTES. Shows me that this world is all a lies. That's when my life is always screwed yet i took it as a lesson. To pull through it alone again 7 again. Until now i wonder if i deserve this. Not only you have been ruining my life but there are many more. Yet i thank you elijah, For bringing me up. Ever since then, Who ever who broke me. Only manage to make me smile to live a better. Likewise, I have been very happy these few weeks. I spend my days with no regrets i spend my days meaningfully. But just only, 5Mins ago! My day have been ruin! & I don't want to step in this situtaion. Yet my emotions are just controlling! My hate is growing my bratty attitude is back! I don't understand what i want i totally hate this day! I seriously does! I don't know what is going on. But now everyone is ling. Everyone have turn thier back away from me. I am hurt enough. Why is these things happening? What did i do to deserve such things? I HATE LIFE I SERIOUSLY DOES! I DON'T WANT TO CRY! What is there to cry about when that is all people do to me! FUCK MY LIFE! I HATE YOU ELIJAH JOHN CORTES! YOU RUIN NG GEK PENG SINCE THE 1ST DAY YOU SHOW HER THAT YOU CHEATED ON HER! THOSE WORDS YOU SAID WILL NEVER BE EARSED! & FOR THOSE WHO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WHO USED ME, WHO LIE TO ME, WHO RAPED ME INSIDE OUT! FUCK YOU GUYS ALL BACK! Thankyou for ruining a child. I thought if i treated someone nice enough they will return it back.
I thought after a rain there will be a rainbow. [ There is rainbow after rain. but soon rain comes back again]
I thought if you don't lie no one will lie to you.
I thought as long as i love hard enough i will get it back.
I thought! But thier just THOUGHTS! The fact is that the world lies to us all! D:

Peaceout
I hate to left alone but this is what i prefer to be. It's better then having those fake people around you. & you don't know so!
[F]uck [M]y [L]ife

03March2010; 10.16pm

I need darkness. But baby i need you here with me

2010-03-08T16:53:00.001-08:00

Didn't attend school or today ^^ It's just too boring! :x Not all actually it was fun, Yet there was the word BORING flashing around. Anyway. I thought i could catch up more on my sleep but yeah now it's only 9 am & I've already showered :x Nevermind then. & Yeah thanks for thoe people who SMSED me that you guys miss me! HAHAHA! But i only miss someone, That should be up there flying to some other places D: But I feel very insecure now. So I'm not very sure about how & where I'm heading too.
Enough of all my complicated emotions. Will be attending school tomorrow! Can't wait for CAMPING CAMPING CAMPING! I've already packed my bags! HAHAHA! After camp I've chalet fun time just end fast. this will be the whole week of my break. & Time to go back to work :s Oh well, Work is fun too though. I can't survive having rest every single day. I'll D-I-E! Trust me! HAHAHA
Will be going out later at 12pm^^ Dates I'm looking forward to, 11-12 march, 13-14 March. 15 March, 17 March 7 25 March! ;D
Update more or something later tonight!

Peaceout
No one ; I miss you cyhst!

I don't have the courage to

2010-03-07T05:43:00.000-08:00

I've deleted all our pictures. All our dreams. & this picture is the last that you gave it to me. The last time we got together. I don't know why, I just feel like calling you, I just miss you. I just need you here. But I know I have to let you go & likewise I've already let go of you. So sorry i don't have all those nice picture up there for you. Yes this post will be all for you. & No one else. I've no mood to post about my day as well. I don't know why, I just feel the need to call you. But maybe I no longer matters to you. Because i don't recieve anything from you either. Guesss i was just a past now. It's good that you've forgotten me though. This post is mainly for me to apologise to you. I know I've always been blaming you. I know I have my wrong too. & As for what i said. We have the love but we don't have the fate so I'm ready to let it. actually i've already let go of it. I just miss those time we had together out of a sudden. those dreams we made together our child names. Or days we spend together. how we'll live where we'll be at. & Everything. Knowing that its the past now. & Not the future. I'm sorry if i ever misunderstood you. I regret hurting you. I know it's not totally your fault. I try to be good. I try to be a good wifey. I try to be Mrs cortes. But I'm sorry. things just don't work out. Feelings will always be there. But no longer there will be a future.
Sometime i am here still hoping that you could change back the time. & Go back to 250807. But it's all over now...

Goodbye, 250807.

It still hurts me when i even think of you holding a unknown girl hand

2010-03-06T18:22:00.000-08:00

I am not a work freak D: Hate it when you say that to me D:
Anyway MORNING LOVE!^^ I still have my eye mask on my fore head! HAHA! 1st thing in the morning was work :x I know i know, It's Sunday & that was what i did 1st thing in the morning. Sound seriously stupid. Well telling me to drop all my work just to lay on bed i can't do. Over my dead body! HAHAHA!
Since I'm done with my work. d&t & french is next^^ Later I'll be going out woo! Shopping spree i reckon. (? A few more days till you're leaving. I hate the fact that someone is leaving me. It just hurts me. Even though it's just a short period of time. Yet :x It just suck! D: I'll either beep you today or tomorrow. Coming to another point, It look like & i thought I've moved on. But maybe, stating the fact is that I've never stopped loving you? This sound so bad! I can't believe I'm typing this by my own hand. Yet I'm suppose to admit this, a few years of relationship. Gone through thick and thin showing attitude towards each other. Having our sweet & romantic stuff. Giving each other the love that we both needed.
I thought i knew I've let everything go. But thinking that you're holding some unknown hand just breaks me.
Still, It's just the best choice for both of us. We have the love but we don't have the fate. Sometime i even wished that those things never did happen. & So We'll still be together. & Maybe our dreams have already been fulfilled maybe we're enjoying it. Knowing that the past can never be changed I've got to wake up. Your birthday is coming next you'll be 19. I am here to only wish you, have a dream girl of yours. I only know that it wouldn't be me. Even though i wish it's me. Yet i don't want to. I've been hurt by you more then enough. I just can't forgive. Maybe those are the words.

Peaceout,
There's nothing to cry, Over a spilled milk

Feeling fade

2010-03-05T18:09:00.000-08:00

Morning people! It's my day off! & I so don't get use to it :x I shouldn't be home at this time HAHA! Well, all my bosses just don't want me back D: Reason being I've been working straight for 2weeks ++ Already. HAHA! So Today & tomorrow. I reckon I'll be rotting? But somehow i'm looking for things to do. But luckily. I bought home some work document that can be done at home^^ I miss CYHST! I know now days Ns side is busy. Some more you want fei fei ler D: Faster faster oome back D: I want Elephant! Guagua!
Oh yes, My breakfast for today is seriously stupid! I am so going to be fat! I had Blackcurrant Blast; Mark & spencer! ^^ It's awesome nice but it's just gonna make me job an extra few miles D: Well, whats done can't be undone. I'll jog then.
I haven't been reading a blog that i use to read every day no matter it's updated or not. As it always hurts me deeply. But i just couldn't tell anyone. But now, Reading it makes me wonder, 'Why am i reading this fucker blog?' HAHA! & Of course I've not read it for like past 3 to 5 days already. So i reckon I've got over it? That blog is just so fucking dramatic! :x WTF!? Whatever it is, I aint no going to judge anyone about. Now I'm all CYHST! I deeply deeply love die him ! , Blushes! (: I hope on the 25 i will get what i want? But i have a second thoughts in my mind D: Nevermind now, @$%^&*@!
Today should be a boring day unless people work with me! HAHA! I'll update more tonight if there's a need to! (:

Peaceout,
Faster faster come back!

Time check, 12am 7March
Just got home from Loyang. When to pray as it was some festival thing. When out for dinner with Family too! It have been sometime we sat down together. I'll elaborate my day yeah? Morning as what it was indicated above. After having my gummy breakfast, Watched television a little. Do my work, Like for half an hour:x When to bed again, Woke up at the time of 3pm :/ Because Kelvin SMS me :x Tao yan you! Mommy got me chicken rice ^^ It was delicious, Watched tv until 6pm waited for dad to come back home from work ;D Got dinner @ Changi Village. Prayers was at Loyang. & Here i am. Home sweet home!
& Yes, I've finally got my eye mask! Now i can finally have a good sleep[: That' will be all for today. Boring yet relaxing.
Boyboyboy! Imissyou bad! D:
Will be going out tomorrow late noon.

Peaceout,
I miss you, I hope you're missing me too

Is it a little too fast?

2010-03-05T04:17:00.000-08:00

Picture spam? I reckon? Well there's only 9 ]: Suit yourself then. Gah! School day was fun yet typical^^
Mt reading period was boring :x
Maths did filing
Chinese copied notes & submit files
Social studies, look through test paper which i failed it again D: & Submit file too
Recess was talking & bought food. Accompanied by Nema.
Geography, When down to General Office & Bandage Renee K :x Which i would not like to talk about ( Secret between you )Winkz!
English when through Test paper^^ Like wise i passed ! YOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO!
& Took pictures with Shahilah, Faridzwan & Zaki! Like was like effing cool (:Hope you people enjoy it?
Had free period all the way & Red cross was at 3pm. But when shopping with Nema, Syameem & Diyanah. At Compass point. Reach back was only around 4.45pm :x
Mark attendance played Frisbee & also Basket ball. It was crazy fun. But dirty. Head home straight ! Will be working later on. & This will be the end of my day (: Relaxing yet Enjoyable! Can't wait for campy day! So day will end faster & you'll be back!! I miss you!

Peaceout,
Last day of the weekday^^ 05 March 2010, 8.29pm

I am happy with the life I'm having

2010-03-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

Another awesome day i had^^ I just find it so meaningful whenever i don't have to rot at home :x
School is typical,
Morning run, Walked with Renee & came back the last :/ Which was totally Pathetic!
Geography, Mrs Chia when through test papers. & Did corrections.
Social studies, Mr ho was very busy ]: Renee & i when to General office to get class list likewise we stroll around.
Physic, I've no idea what i did D: I better BUCK UP!
Chemistry, Did filling. & Worksheet about Atmosphere & Environment.
Chinese, I was dead tired i slept. Even teacher woke me up a several times i didn't know so D:
Maths was bargaining with Mrs Wong so only did two questions of Maths.^^
After school, Met Mdm chong to get my filing stuff.
Head over to Whites sands to meet mom for lunch. Fetch my idiotic brother. Home sweet home (:
Changed and when over to Amk. Had to go over to Sin ming road. Lost! Took cab :x
As i was late, reach office did my document & off i go. Boss fetch me to Amk MRT. Soon i head back to Pasir ris meet mommy, Walked around & now here i am!
These days are just lovely, Thier all meaningful beautiful pictures everyday. The only thing now i want is 25March to come^^ I miss you lots!

Peaceout,
I hope to hear those words from you

This song made the whole atmosphere here all about you.
I can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the the silence with just one word
Warm the fire-started revolution
One that can save the world

On the steps of Washington sprinkled like confetti
Thousands of people sing "We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts: "Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed

Chorus
You can be a witness You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper dreams are what make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He want to pay for the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger fragile and small "Unto us is born a Savior"
She looks at her baby and cries as she sings him a lullaby

(Chorus)

Every hope, every power lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hand

Just a text message from you, made me smile the whole day

2010-03-03T07:16:00.000-08:00

This will be the second blog of the day, The day is just simply ending things are not done yet. So I'll just push it up to do it Tomorrow.
Tomorrow will be heading down to Sing min auto care drive office to get some paper work. Which I'm sorting out if i should just cab over? :x
Well, I've nothing much to talk about here i just felt like blogging. But since that my show is on now, I'll watch it^^
Anyway belove sms me today! I'm so happy! Hehehe! Csn't wait till you come back alright? Be safe^^ Love die you ;D
Oh yes, I read this blog from Multiply i suppose the writer is from SPI (Singaspore Paranoaml Investigator) Now it's spooking me out! D: I know I'm a little CCD D: HAHAH! Alright now, Blog tomorrow! Love my darling.

Peaceout,
I want a fangs

Unfair little mother earth

2010-03-02T23:50:00.000-08:00

R-E-L-A-X-A-T-I-O-N^^
Daddy fetched me to school today^^
Assembly in hall. Got called up. Reason being, Didn't had school tie! It's just a waste of money!
Home period in class for half an hour.
Design & Technology, Did test & submitted our folio.
Physic, When through test paper. I didn't pass D: But i improve^^ Yet it's not something to be proud of.
Chemistry, when through test paper as well. Didn't pass either D: But i improve. & Again, It's not something to be proud of.
Elective module when to Tanjong Katong road. Regal Nails. Had Nail art lesson over there^^
& Lastly, I'm H-O-M-E!
Today will be an easy day for me ^^ Which I'm enjoying every single second of it!
My undone things would be,
*Buying my babies Bedding
*Transfer money, Which is kinda a problem
*Study my physic
*Head to the Library
*Revise through my french
*Clean my babies tank.
This will be the things I'll be done doing by the end of the day(:
But before i go,
I saw a recent news about, Taxi Drivers going to Casino. Through out the day i kept thinking, what is so wrong about it? Why do they have to take picturs of them? Isn't this a little too unreasonable? Aren't Taxi drivers human? Does the casino only state that only business people can only be in? Or is it that people is looking down on Taxi drivers? But i thought that in singapore singaporean have to be treated all fairly? So now what? People would say, Their just worried that they won't work & gamble their life off. But i would like to ask a question here, Did they still pay up their Taxi rental? So what is there to write about Taxi Drivers? Seriously, I find it very very UNREASONABLE! :x Like wise, For a normal car & sometime with those A-S-S-H-O-L-E-S drivers. They don't on their Signal light. & Taxi drivers have no rights to complain about them?! W-T-F! But for Taxi drivers if they don't public can complain about the drivers? 7 Drivers will be fine? What is this?
But like for what i said, Life is just simply U-N-F-A-I-R! Also, For those who thinks that their just some big fcuk who looks down on people just because of their education & jobs. I would simply only say. SCREW YOU! So what if you have the education & money?! You don't fcuking have manners & it only shows that you're just some stuck up fcukers! Who doesn't have a mom nor dad to tech! :x You the people are the ones that people L-O-O-K D-O-W-N on! :X

Peaceout,
If you don't have the respect you're simple equal to a stray negative dog!

Drop dead

2010-03-02T06:49:00.001-08:00

Everything starts with a word 'B-E-L-I-E-V-E'
Drop dead tired :x But i just simply love my days. Simple yet it's giving me satisfaction.
When to school early, Daddy fetch^^
Had reading period, which was superior boring!
Physical Exerise was F-U-N! Played Table tennis double. (Jerelyn, Teacher, Kelvin & myself)
Geography, studied about food consumption still.
Chinese, Did Workbook. But I've long done so. Due to class changes.
Recess was talking to Martin.
English, Mr Keh when through N'level book. I slept through out. Reason being, I just brought the book.
Pc, Teacher was collecting forms & talking about cyber wellness.
Assembly, Our class was late. Reason being LEE PEI NI was being (..) Left the hall at the time of 1.30pm & when for Re-test. (Chemistry)
& Head home with,
Shi hui, Nema, Syameem, & Diyanah.
When over to Downtown, Met mom for lunch.^^ I had chicken rice, as i was craving for it! H-A-P-P-Y!
Was home at around the time of 5pm. Quicky change & when to work at Harbo. It was awesome^^
& Now I'm home! The only thing I'm disappointed in myself for today is, I've forgotten to buy my babies bedding!
Things not done yet,
-Design & Technology
-English N'level
-Help Kelvin to get a job
I'll get going on my undone work now.

Peaceout,
I've long gone.

Just a word from you made me smile

2010-03-01T01:07:00.001-08:00

Days are just awesome^^ School is fine. Wore slippers to school :x Which is like 'DIRTY'! :s Eewww! But no choice, My leg is like swollen. Anyway, School starts at 8.30am. Fetch brother to school & head to bus stop to meet Diyanah.
Assembly was Humid.
D&t, Got called out. Yet i did my Ideation.
Recess, Chit chat in class.
Maths, Talk to Jerelyn & did my Maths corrections.
English, Listen to MrKeh While he was teaching about Idioms.
Social studies, did some F-U-N work^^
School ends at 2pm. But had extra lesson with Mrs Chia at 2.30pm.
Ya ting brought me food^^
Geography, studied about Food conservation. & Here i am^^ H-O-M-E!
Going out after this blog, For my Baby Evelina Appointment.
---------------Things to be done----------------
*Revision
*French Revision
~~Appointment for Evelina~~
*Clean baby tank
*~~Geography Remedial~~
*Geography Homework
*Sign some forms
*Email my resume.

I'll update more later tonight? I suppose so. If i've got time to^^ Anyway yesterday, Darling called last night. Awesome! Heartshearts! (: Guagua!

Peaceout,
Love die you!

Itches all over

2010-02-28T06:14:00.000-08:00

I've no idea why wasn't my blog up & in my folder. I've upload my yesterday day, Yesterday. On my Aunt Lappy. Reason being i was at my Nana's. I typed like Million words on it about some insane person who pissed me off. & Also my day. But forget it. It's the past now. Let's not talk about it.
Today i would say, Is. A-W-E-S-O-M-E! Worked at 10 am-1 pm in expo. Not under the same boss but same location. HAHA! Once the clock strike 1pm I when over to my rightful boss. HAHA! So work was 1pm to 8pm/ It was crazy fun in the morning with Neyo & co. But in the noon, we're like all dead:x HAHA! But it was all cool. When over to hall3 numerous time. Ate ate ate! ^^ Waited for Jiejun call, But no he didn't. What do i expect? His at power house! -,- Nevermind. So met, Joey. He fetched me after work. When for crazy shopping. Got my heels! (: HAHA! Spend like 250dollars :x I don't know what did i spend on. & Here i am, blogging. Will be revising my work before bed^^ I know what I'm doing now. I know where i want to head to. & By what i want, i can't only say it. I've to get things done. So i am here moving on. I'll be waiting for someone ;D! Hopefully, It's worthy.
Oh yes, My leg is swollen D: & My body up down, all got Vampires to bite on. Now I'm itching all over D: Hope I'll recover soon D: & Yes. I might be changing my job soon. I've to get my Resume done. So I'll see you darling tomorrow.
Here's my Tumblr, since laogong don't want me to keep things secret. But I'm not using it as my main anymore.
http://gyellowelephant.tumblr.com/

Peaceout,
Darling, faster faster come back!

Love just makes everyone naive

2010-02-27T16:31:00.000-08:00

I'm just so naive to believe that you were just busy, I'm just still so naive to believe that you still love me. HAHA! Whatever it is, I don't know you anymore. You're just deleted. I despite you. I thought you were someone nice. But maybe let's just not judge it's book by it cover. But maybe it's just my luck, I will never tolerate a guy who cheats over & over again. Once a cheat he is able to do it over & over again. There's a once there will be a twice. So what was i thinking? I've no idea. So yeah, I waited for your call but ended up, I'm practically nothing. Your end is a break. It's a comfirmed case now.
Like what I told loagong & everyone out there. Love is a two way traffic. I know i always comfort you guys with this words now you all are giving it back. & I would like to say thankyou! I appreciate it. Because I AM USING IT! Screw your love, What a weak pussy love-,- So yes, I love you but i need a return. But now, Your love is just a lie. & No i don't make friends with Liar! So screw off! Hopefully i won't hear anything from you anymore.
I know who I'll be waiting for now, I know what am i suppose to do now. The is still there but it's like a gave myself a tight slap now I'm awake. Love cannot be force. & It's fate to hold. We never had any of it. So now I'm heading my check point. You head yours. Life is not easy nor fair. But no matter what I will be happy & not let life to break me down. Actually, I should also thank you for breaking me up into pieces so i don't have to still believe that you still have feelings for me & even wanting to wait. HAHA! You ate me up one shot. It might be pain, But i won't have any more of this pain from you anymore ^^v
I'm independent to know, I am mature to think. I believe is relying on myself is better then relying on someone else.
You're just a like a folder in my PC & I've just got you deleted.

Peaceout,
I MISS CYHST

Retarded me

2010-02-27T05:04:00.000-08:00

HELLO EARHTLIEN! ^^ Gosh I'm finally back from all the stressful work i had today.
Woke up at 5.30am. But i went back to bed again:x Woke up by mom at 6am. Itches was all over me. I had no idea what when wrong but i screwed up last night. But thank's to weihong he accomapined me^^ I jio you sua! -,-
Jokes. Anyway, showered change /7 when to work. ALijuni was the 1st place i went. :/ I was really tired but what can i do? Anyway worked with sam was fun & time fly superior fast! Love it! Laogong came over to find me! Isn't he cute?1 Love die you! Until now you still don't want tell me about who tell you about my whereabout. What kind of laogong as you D: Hide things D: Hahaha! But, Thank's for the corncern okay? No one bullied me ^^ Oh yes, I was early for work but Boss wasn't JOKE OF THE DAY! Hahaha! & I ask Alien something really really stupid >: I'm so shy now;s Hahaha! Anyway his going to India for training D: I heard is a month plus right? Awww take good care of your self okay? Think of the 'Fei ji' Like what i said. *Winkwink*
I ate carrot cake today^^ Black & white! & Had lime juice. I'm eating okay? Laogong don't worry! I very good girl^^ Workworkwork. Ate agar agar & Watermelon juice, head down to expo. Ate donut & WORKWORKWORK! Talked to Neyo & Udhayl or something like that. It was crazy fun. Time fly fast fast. & Now here i am, In my Nana's house. I'm goddamit tired. but what can i do? Don't feel like eating at all. D: But for sake of laogong, I will get something okay? I don't want see you! That's why I'm eaitng HAHAHA! Tomorrow won't be working at Aljuni at 7am. Will head down to Expo at 10am to 8am^^v Should be Jielun or Martin? Idk. This will be my roughly sketch for today. & Sorry, I didn't update my Tumblr. Reason being i don't know what's my passwork & Id for it. It's all saved in my pc.
Alright I've nothing more to type now.
Alien, Take good care of yourself India.
WeiHong, Thank you for everything.
Laogong, Love die you.
Elijah, I've said what i need to say. Never once you understand.
Niniwowo, I've gave up. Yet hoping you would call. But i reckon. She's all that matter to you. so Forget it. All i hope is that You'll do good inside & be happy outside.

Peaceout,
Today mgiht be the 1st day I've gone my way & so did you.

L-A-Z-Y

2010-02-26T03:56:00.000-08:00

The second day when you're gone. The first day that i'm using Tumblr. The 1st day that I'm holding on. The every other day that I'm left alone. The 1st day I'm telling myself that those words you said were just beautiful lies.
Special thanks to only 3 person.
-WEI HONG A.K.A LAGGY
-NEMA A.K.A BABEYY
-MARTIN
Thank you for everything leaving your phone for me for 24/7. ^^
I'm feeling alot more better, I've learn't the facts & it's simply just your choice. So what is there to be upset about? I know saying such will only make me upset. But i know i should be doing well. Even if i don't i still have to pull through. My whereabouts, my life have got nothing for you to know about since yesterday.
Even though i can't sleep every night every min, & yes i admit I'm hiding. I am. So? At least i force myself to bed<: (Back to my pills)
Going to bed is tough but sleeping in it is awesome. Time fly fast realistic come. Bt when I'm awake the misery will just be waiting right there beside me.
If you've ever felt this pain, waiting up knowing that everything was just 'Y-E-S-T-E-R-D-A-Y' It's like heart being smashed over & over again. Tears can't stop but wanting to flow. :x
I am confident enough that I'll get over you every soon. Like for what some people is telling me, What is there to love when you doesn't? & Yes i totally agree with you people.
For another kind of people, Who is saying that he loves me I've got nothing to say but just 'No he don't' So please stop helping him to build up his beautiful lies.
I'm D-O-N-E over it. & I'm no longer upset over such. I've been through more then this. <:

Peaceout,
I'm heading to my own check point by my own.

I've gotten over you

2010-02-24T23:32:00.000-08:00

Gwinny Gwanny^^ Back home from school, Finally, It's been so long that I'm home & I'm resting my feet till tomorrow. Well, I'm not going out any much more soon i reckon? Well, I've my target now, what is there to fool around? I better study well for my N'level. & Get the points i want! Not anywhere more the 15points!
Let's talk about my day, At first it SUCK DICK!
I slept at 12am++ Woke up at 2am, Cried myself back to bed. Fell asleep. 3plus I've got up again because of you. I cried myself back to bed again. Finally, 4am I woke up the same with a broken hearted feeling. So i smsed you, forget about my phone day dream & fell asleep :x Until soon hours.
When to school, Slept outside of class while waiting for common test to start. Did geography test, & Yes i FLUNG the whole common test;D But I'm so going to get everything back in to my small brain.
After geography test, Social studies was next. I slept throughout, & smsed niniwowo. Got upset & started crying. D: Afterwhich, physic. I had no choice but to go to the toilet. Came back, nandini accompanied me throughout. Ask tissue around:/ CRAP! & Recess was next, Talked to elijah & titus on the phone. Thanks for the comfort & love. Yonghan was busy so it's all cool. I can undersatnd^^ Chemistry, i studied & did the post previously? HAHAHA! Chemistry was held in comp lad in case you people still don't get what i meant. Chinese was next, did filing & talking. Yeah around you guys i feel better. But maybe I'm aready season being hurt like this over & over again ( said by, Diyanah! ) HAHA! I wouldn't agree any lesser. Math's was last, talked to jerelyn, wei xiang & yiqing. HAHAHA! It's cute that you guys was singing. (: Half the period i was sleeping. I know, doing all this just wouldn't help me to get my 15points & below. But I am here to say i will study after today!
Reason being, I'm awake now. Now knowing that you have no feelings for me what is there to be upset off? Like what i said. You have shown me your results. You have good bad because for your case is just different. I always say ' If you really love me you'll be here with me not (..) ' But yeah, this is what you show me so i lost nothing? Don't i? Now, I'm home. I'll be going to bed soon. Will be waking up later for dinner & for myself to study^^ Here i am to promise myself, that the hours i study will be more then the hours i play from tomorrow onwards. (:
Isn't it cool? Since I've thought through it? HAHA! But no matter what you'll be a awesome 'brother' of mine^^HAHA! Today weather is like extra hot, good luck huh?!
Guagua, Here's my plan for tomorrow. If Nandini is able to come out i won't be attending Jogatton at Sengkang riverside. If not i will be attending. But if not, I'll be hanging out with nanidni, for moives & revision for those that I've missed out the months back. :z It will be hard waork, But this time i am SO going to get what i want! No want can have it! @: HAHAHA! Saturday & sunday will be very very very busy.
I will update tonight or so?
Ps, Blog here will still be updated at tmes. But Tumblr will be my main blog. If i don't like it i'll come back for now. I'm all Tumblr

Peaceout
Lovely bubbly

You torn me apart

2010-02-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did
Yeahyeah, last post but what the fuck I'm doing here right? Anything whatever lame! Fuck, I'm saying shit that i hate.
Currently, in Comp lab. Looking at your fucking blog! I can't wait for your next post! I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, Maybe I'm upset. But thanks to my friend to keep me company but no matter what if I'm left a second tears will just (...) Seeing that text from you will only make me want to say ' You don't love me' Get it? I hate hearing it. It only breaks me more & more! :x
Anyway i don't blame you but only myself. I hate myself for loving you. But maybe i no longer do after knowing the results. Well expected & i don't ask for more. I only hope you'll do well. Remember your promise^^v
I suppose i will live better? Not for you, But for my fucking self. & I've left that person you love as my target. & Yeah! I wouldn't agree less. Maybe i say all this will only just be because i'm piss right now cause I don't get what i want. & I fucking feel used But end up, I'm just someone who is torn by you, & I feel so restless.
End up, I don't blame you okay? I agreed to play with this game. & Now it's just overIt's just fate. & I don't give a fuck. Hope to see you one day on the road. ^^v Takecares,
Gekkie is, HAPPY, SAD, DEPRESS, HURTED, TORNED, UNHAPPY, nevermind you don't need to know much nor, you don't even care. I've never regret knowing you.
I promise to not cry for you in school & every othger places. I've broke it. I'm speechless for myself.
I have to wake up i have to wake up! You don't love me you don't love me!
Last long.

Cry baby cry

2010-02-24T03:23:00.000-08:00

It's my 1st post over the 100's But sad to say, This will be the last post. Link have been changed. & Hopefully it will really be my secret dairy.^^v
I wouldn't want to say nor even know how to say anything about my emotions now. Yes for some people you'll be happy to know this & the rest wait for my head on your shoulders okay? Yeah, Our story endedEven though he haven't say such but i know so & when it'll be happening. Yes i would admit everything today like what i said.
Alright, I'm still going to blog about my day today okay? HAHA! Morning when to class met friends & talk to asshole LARRY LIM! @: Angry face luhh! When to the hall talk talk day dream sms & when back to class. Afterwhich, is Chinese & physic test! I think i've flung Both the paper. & Tomorrow will be my last, Which is Geography. Repot sick & when home. For sake of niniwowo. I missed my beauty class & Chinese oral. :x Nevermind. When to central met up with niniwowo head to my place. I get change & off to the beach. I wouldn't talk much about the beach we pratically talked. & Yeah I've nothing much to talk about though.. Well this will be my day am like i suppose^^ & Hopefully after tomorrow, things will go as how i wanted? Now this is what have always been in me, even though I'm not a good & muchy muchy person maybe i'll pour it all out. But i don't feel like now:/ Crap!
Will update with french later,

peaceout
I love you bloggy!

Alright, it's okay. Thinking through i don't think i need to tell anyone how I'm feeling nor how I'm doing. I'm doing fine & will be fine okay? So please don't (...) Alright? Yeah I'm not gonna say much now. Thinking through, How you act i'll follow. Monkey see monkey do(: Like wise don't say you ~~love~~me, you should know me well more the enough that i hate liars alright? Like what I've been saying this days. End of the day I'll only see the results of (..) Anyway you don't have to know much nor people have to. I'll keep it to myself now. New blog will be kept as a secret within me. Should be doing vloggy^^ With co. Will be posting it up on youtube.
& To my dear boy. Or should i just call you by name? Well, All i will say here is i Thank god that I've met you^^ & For whatever We've done. Days might be less. But their all treasured. The rest you don't have to know.
All I will only say here is Thank you. Don't fool around anymore, treasure what you have. Don't lose them if you really love them. If not you'll regret forever. Okay? I've always been looking at what you're typing to her & she have typed to you. I'm sorry for what I've done to your relationship before new year. This will be the last time I'm typing for you. Be good come out in 2weeks time okay? Dare yourself that! Set that as your goal. & If you do, You're able to do anything already. Takecares.
Last long, Okay? B&J. Here's your marriage with her, wish from me 'Always be a blissful couple'(L) Try to grow up fast fast for your marriage in year 2012.
(:
With love,
Evelyn Ng Gek Peng.
Ps, I've let it go, I'm not upset over this, & I won't be. Love is a two way traffic^^ Let me to be the past tense from now on.
Maybe you don't even give a fcuk:x Nevermind take it as i talk to the wall, but yeah. No swearing;p

My 100 post^^

2010-02-23T06:29:00.001-08:00

Not really in the mood to say anything. All i want to know is the results you're giving me(:

Peaceout,
You make me wonder

Votre réponse montre tout

2010-02-22T05:08:00.000-08:00

What a old picture ^^ It was when i was 13? I suppose so? Anyway today going to school was tough:x late. But yeah at least i got it in time for the last min for test^^ Chemistry was alright^^ Maths was a disaster_|_ Knew it.
After which was D&T & was wasting time as i had to get a contact lens casing _|_ When to recess, chat on the phone with niniwowo & trust me his scaring himself out & i myself. Such a fucker aren't he? Math's was next, was helping Yiqing & jerelyn to sort out some contacts thingy. Chat with them too ^^ & Also my beloved rara!
English & social studies. was okay. Got what i need to study for tomorrow test & I'm done ^^ Should be okay. When to the toilet & chat with niniwowo again. As he was scaring the shit of him by himself. WTF?! When home asap, met niniwowo. When over to the beach & i just came home^^ It was sweet at 1st^^v & In the end it was crazy fun. Love you ttm luhh (L) Alrights? That will be all. Awesome day.
Xoxo.

J'aime ces jours, en espérant temps serait juste à congeler et vous n'aurez plus jamais à quitter. Mais face à la réalité, vous avez à. Jours restants jours est seulement 2more. Je ne sais pas comment vais-je capable de faire face. Mais j'espère que je suis capable. Je ne peux plus compter sur vous, ou plus rien .. Vous avez fait ces jours merveilleux. Mais savez-vous que ça me fera plus inquiet quand partez-vous? Peut-être. C'est juste la fin. Tu ne m'appartient pas. Et j'espère que tout ira bien après que je suis allé. Sachant que tu vas me manquer, vous dire que ça va aller, vous demandant de me laisser. Mais, tout est juste dire mon coeur, Je t'aime, je ne vais pas bien. S'il vous plaît ne laissez pas .. Mais non vous ne devriez pas savoir .. tels Je sais tout cela par ma propre volonté faire. Je ne sais pas, que suis-je maintenant ..

If we ever meet again

2010-02-20T20:51:00.001-08:00

Let's meet up again once more,
Let's fall in love again like how those young couple do,
Let's get the hurting feeling again,
Love is all BULLSHIT.
Promises, words, love. Their just joke.
Unknown, Why do you want to fall in love?
Gekkie, To hurt myself all over again ^^

I don't want to see you ever again

2010-02-20T19:27:00.001-08:00

Actually, i thought today will kinda be a boring day But turn out, It should be an AWESOME day^^
Woke up at 8plus auto:x Checked phone. Rara wanna meet me ^^ Titus called. Met up with Titus in central bused to Tamp talk talk chat chat joke joke. When to Mac for our breakfast C:
When over to Century square brought his stuff, walked around. & He cabbed me home. Thanks love.
Will be heading out to meet aunt & go over for visiting at around 12plus? Meeting rara at 3plus to study. ;D This will roughly be my day(: & I'm loving it. I'll blog more about it tonight yeah ^^v

Pourquoi y at-il deux personnes en moi? Qu'est-ce qui se passe. Un côté de moi qu'il s'agit d'insister, en espérant que vous êtes encore m'aimer. Un autre est train de me dire que l'amour est un trafic à double sens et je vois déjà que votre cœur de votre âme n'est plus ici avec moi. Tu l'aimes .. Pourquoi suis-je se briser? Je ne sais pas. Je tiens à mentir à moi-même mais je veux savoir le fait. Mais je globale sais, vous ne m'aimez pas. Vous n'avez jamais fait. Admettra tout ce que le mardi ou le mercredi de cette semaine. D'ici là, je n'aurai pas de mal à l'aise en vous regardant, parce que je sais que je suis sûr que je ne serai pas vous voir plus. Et bien sûr, sachant que vous n'avez pas le coeur, je veux .. You make me .. inquiète Tout ce que je souhaite, c'est que tu es à moi. Pourtant, je sais que cela n'arrivera jamais. Sachant que tu l'aimes me rend heureux parce que je suis la salope ici. Sachant que tu l'aimes me fait cassé, mais je suis juste une pute. Un substitut .. Ce que je peux dire à moi-même est, non je ne vous aime pas.

Curiosity kills gekpeng

2010-02-20T09:17:00.000-08:00

Time checky^^ It's 2am now. :x Lets elaborate what i did. Woke up at 5pm get ready & head down to whitesands for aunt cakes & etc. When t fishing pond to have our dinner. & Head to town. Rive hongpow. ^^Afterwards when down to Bedok85 for super;D Those are the pictures i took. Sorry for the lousy camera. Overall it was alright^^ Got home pong pongs (: Smsed Daryl throughout. & Now currently chatting with jon. Feeling kinda weird.
Oh yes. later in the noon i shouldn't be heading out with friends anymore :c
Had to visit my family & i've got to study by myself. Cause timing just don't matched.
Anyway, I'm going to bed now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUNT ^^ You're my forever number 1 aunty^^ I love you ;D
As for another day more to Daniel Birthday. I'll give you a call yeah ^^ I love you too :)

Peaceout,
You're not mine,

YOOOOBEEEEEEYOOO

2010-02-19T19:39:00.000-08:00

Étonnamment, Pictures est la seule chose qui pourrait m'aider à parler par ma foiré émotions. Eh bien, Peut-être comme ce que chacun dit. Je ne suis pas une personne facile à comprendre. Peut-être que c'est pourquoi les gens finalement renoncé et m'a laissé tout seul. Je dois utiliser pour ce que je suis en ce moment. Donc, je ne suis pas surprise de très près tout pour le moment. All I Care est sur le point, les choses est sur le point de mettre fin maintenant. Hier, être avec vous venez avec vous. Et ces mots de vous, me fait très mal. & Non, il n'y pas d'importance. Vous aimez ce que j'ai dit que je dois utiliser pour elle. Après la semaine prochaine. Même si j'espère encore que les choses changent peut-être? Pourtant, je sais, ça n'arrivera jamais. Parce que, comme ce que j'ai dit, Vous pourriez être ici avec moi. Votre coeur votre âme n'est pas. Je vous ai dit que je suis capable de lire vos yeux. C'est vrai. Pour vous, c'était une blague .. Qu'à cela ne tienne maintenant. Après la semaine prochaine, vous aurez les jours que vous avez toujours rêvé. Je sais, parce qu'il ne sera pas moi dans votre histoire bientôt. Je vais bientôt plus que d'être votre passé. Pourtant, je suis encore Gonna Say, Thank you for everything. & Oui je sais beaucoup de choses que vous pensez que je n'aime pas. Je ne veux pas dire n'importe quoi ici. Je vais juste le garder comme mon secret pour toujours. Je l'avoue, j'ai senti votre amour fort au début, depuis ce lieu, c'est comme tu disparais. Il n'y a rien que je puisse faire maintenant, j'espère juste que tu m'aimes ... Mais non .. Hope you guys aura un mariage se produire dans l'année de 2012. Tout se terminera bientôt .. Comment suis-je capable de le manipuler?
All the while, My french suck. But bare with it? Gua^^ Anyway, Today should be alright. Will be heading down to the mall to get aunts Presents. & Later evening will be at the Fishing pond to celebrate aunts birthday i suppose? & Down to twon ;D.
As for tomorrow. There's two plans. Due to Rara. Have to wait for her text message.
Plan Number 1,
Meet Rara at downtown & study & of course movies^^ Hopefully nana could come by too.
Plan number 2,
Head down to Lorong ah soo to meet Jon 1st & head down back to Punggol.
Meet nana & Rara to compass point or something like that?
& To my dearest classmates. Good luck for common test yeah^^v

Peaceout,
Coeur brisé, Et pourtant tu pas vouloir savoir. Mais peut-être si vous faites. Vous aurez même pas la peine.

I can't bare to let things go, But i know it will just have to end

2010-02-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

Watched 'Percy Jackson & the lightening thief' Again! Awesome awesome! Watch it for 2times continued. & Also Valentine Day again. But with niniwowo! (: It was an awesome day. Love you ttm yeah^^v & Also, Logan Lerman is HOT! I love him! OMG! HAHA! Oh well school today was cool.But i wouldn't want to talk much about it:X About gthe last end.
When down for Reading period, sung our national anthem.
Morning run, I ran with my uniform:x I'm so gay! Well, I'm just too lazy to change in to PE because i wore the wrong clothes.
Geogrpahy, Madm Chia didn't came. So some indian white teacher came^^v Her english was (...) Awesome is all i can say. Copied the work down & half way through i slept.
Social studies, Copied notes & stuided.
Physic the same, Copied notes, did my worksheet^^
Recess, was sleeping, talking & listening to song.
Chemistry, i studied^^ Copied my notes & PAID FULL ATTENTION!
Chinese was weird, Changed class:x I don't know why o: Teach is just blind these days. Slack all the way.
Maths, was with RARA but most of the time we studied ;D
Aren't i am a good girl! All the while yeah ;D
& When out with Niniwowo (L)

Peaceout,
I'll just keep i all to myself...

BABABABAABA

2010-02-16T22:08:00.001-08:00

Old picture up there. Gekpeng & Ahdeh Zaki(: i know i look shit:x It was after the trip to Macpherson ITE:c God i miss the hotdogs over there. ^^
Anyway today whole morning was accompained by niniwowo. Thanks huh(: Suppose to fetch larry but he only will come out at the time or 6:x _|_ If not can fetch him at 2. But too rush. So when to fetch mommy home(L) So now, I'm here blogging :/ Will be going to central at the time of 5. Most likely I'll take a short nap after this post. & Later tonight will be watching movie at 7pm. ^^Awesome yeah! Can't wait. I want to meet people but all too far away so i'll see how it goes. Okay nothing much to talk about now. Takecares love

Peaceout,
I wish to believe, But i know their all lies

No entertainments' being made

2010-02-15T22:15:00.000-08:00

Baby Gekkie

I'm a fucker! I overslept! Couldn't meet LARRY :C! Tao yan myself! Will be going out for movies with mommy^^ Sorry can't go out with you again NDZ! Sorry. Later evening come home for dinner & Head down to town! Tomorrow, won't be attending school. Should be napping all way long. & Maybe Mid noon then i'll go back to school to fetch LARRY home;D (L)(L) Oh yes, I won't be entertaining smses for today or even tomorrow. Any important matters do call. & Yes pbk! I am a pangseh kia. I am a pangseh kia. Okay? :x I already say try, Knn still need to type this shit to say I'm sorry! I can't attend today de luhh. I know you guys got angpow give but i really no time. Somemore that side got (..) Yarh so, angpw you keep go buy a extra pack of huhu bax.
Number of people owes me huhu, 7^^ Guagua! Slowly save money bax.
Should be blogging later tonight^^

Peaceout,
I love the lion dance drum beat! But i hate the lions:x Spooky!

Back to my post. Horrible day :c It's fucking poo day& I'm home:x Feeling so odd.
Meet larry(Didn't make it) Reason: Over slept
Meet NDZ(Didn't make it) Reason: Timing crash & he over slept
Meet mommy for movie(Didn't mkae it) Reason: Sold out
Meet daddy to town(Didn't make it) Reason: Aunty want to come along so postpon!
Fuckup day i had today :c Hope tomorrow will be better, as planned. Sleep whole day. 2pm plus or so head down to Punggol. Fetch larry home. 7pm, Watch movie[ percy jackson and the lightning thief ] with mommy. & Maybe that's all. I'll go face the wall & rot now. Borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-ringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg! Oh yes, What does this means?
很抱歉，但我们并没有绝望的爱活在过去
余闻上的我刺伤我刺玫瑰，
我与血写的，我会永远爱你。? Matze typed this for me when his a german? Gosh! I salut him! (: HAHAHAHA! He miss me ley ^^ I miss you too luhh Matze(: I'll see you soon.

Goodnightlove

Cherry blossom

2010-02-15T11:57:00.000-08:00

Oh my fuck, Isn't this cool? I want i want! ^^ Hehheh! Time check. 4.01am
Morning, woke up help mommy get songs & stuff. When to had manicure with my beloved mommy. Talk to her the whole fucking day. Isn't it awesome? Late noon, when over to nanas house. Played eat gamble like mad ^^ Smsed as per usual, Gosh I'm like fucking spam:x Gah! 12plus to 1plus talk on the phone with 'Elijah'& 'Weiquan'-,-Joke Hao bu hao:x Around 3plus i can't dong fall a sleep :C But yeah, NDZ! You, fall asleep again! I want settle with you liao luhh!! Tao yan ni! Argh! Oh yes, & OMG. My wu xim larry! Wo ai ni hao bu hao! Tomorrow, Might be meeting you for Breakfast & movie hor?! Gah! Maybe afterwards then meet NDZ for valentine movie^^ Late evening outing with family ;D Wednesday, I'm so gonna have a big break ^^ That's all you people need to know. Had awesome fun with, 'Zi en' 'Jordan' & 'Kaiyee' Best cousin! (L) & Sorry, Nandini. i coulldn't attend your BBQ. If i reach there by now i'll just be able to talk for you able cause i'm meeting larry in a few hours time(: We'll you'll have to know, I love you the most my dearest girl. & Sorry, Jonny! I coulnd't attend your drinking club :x It's so fucking late & I'm meeting people in a few hours time. I'll catch up with you soon. I know you miss you ^^ I misses you too ^^v!

Peaceout,
Goodnight lovely! I've found my happiness爱

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINE!

2010-02-14T07:39:00.000-08:00

Give me a fake Rose & tell me that you'll love me till that Rose witted爱

Specially edited for NDZ, Thanks' so much luhh, Thinking that you from Yishun fly down Tenah merah, Touch ley!爱

Gai gai with my family ^^爱

While waiting for my gorgeous family爱
GONG XI FA CAI & AI AI AI (:
Awesome, sweet, lovely, cuddly, or boring. You people say^^
Woke up early, When to (..) Head home, slept awhile. When to baibai^^v & Head to nanas place. It was crazy fun talking playing, etc. Oh yes, I have pictures! Grrr. But stupid printer:/ Well, I'll keep trying if not tomorrow yeah? ^^[Pictures are uploaded at the time of 10.38am date of 15Febuary2010]
Yes, where was i? Hmm. Yup, Talk talk Half way when to Tenah merah Train station meet NDZ! Knn you sweet luhh cb kia! F.U.C.K! Thank's for the rose, But like what i said. I really love it alot. ^^ It's included in my pictures. Must see ley! & To all those Pbk! Say this year my Valentine sure very Pathetic! Fuck ni, yi ge liang ge. (: I got rose ley! Some more say see me poor thing want celebrate with me, Knn luhh! Don't need. Guaguagua! After nanas when down to Loyang & baibai again. But as per usual i just did the simply way & hide in a corner while waiting for mom sms & songsong (:
Head home with a lovely rose. HAPPY VALENTINE NDZ& All my pbk! & Please luhh you pussy boy! I never buy & say it's people give de luhh _|_ -,- Tao yan ni men yi ge liang ge ley! HAHAHAHA! Okay luhh here i am, 11.49pm Blogging(:
Mr CYHST! Your birthday ley in 11Mins time. Later 12am i sing song let you hear huh must be Honor hor! I don't do this kind of rubbish de:x Gah! Okay luhh, I can't dong already. Due to some medication. Tomorrow, I've got to get up early too. Goodnight lovelys! (:
To, All my Pbk! I'm really sorry that i can't go down to Yishun i really have got no time. You guys should know me well enough luhh, i where won't want go down! I miss you all ley D: _|_ Say until like i knn forget you guys. Sorry luhh. I know i miss 4Tables already inculding today will be 6 ley D: But i stay so far you all ask me go there i also got family de what :x Hmm, Tuesday one i try go down okay? That's the last one luhh, I will give you guys face. But i say i try ler huh!爱 I miss you all Pbk luhh!

Peaceout,
Pain in the inside, Laughers in the out.

Boy, i miss you

2010-02-13T11:28:00.000-08:00

I'll upload pictures tomorrow? just some cam whoring moment when i was waiting for my parents to shower :x Gah! Alright alright, Time check 3.29am! I'll so not gonna forget this day! I almost got myself celebrating Chinese New Year in the fucking Hospital _|_ Shag i know. Hmm, Lucky i got daddy.
So yeah today was alright, thans for those people we accompained me ^^ Love die you all yeah! Featured! NDZ! (: Hehehehe! Tomorrow, ask my fucking check up at hospital i see got time i go collect my Rose okay ? ^^v Sweet huh? HEHEHE! & Sorry for those peopel that missed called me & i didn't reply to your text message. I was really hooked up;x HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL & CHINESE NEW YEAR (L) Gekkie love die you all a million luhh! & LARRY LARRY, You sibei wu xim luhh! I love love love love you! (: MWAH!
Thanks for the flowers & Sweet words. But their too precious to be true. I just don't believe sorry to you'all.
Hopefully this new year will be a awesome year. & To my dear Renee, I will try my best to go out & accompany you okay?
I simply love today

Song for today, there's two!
I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

~Another~

I say hey, I be gone today
But I be back around the way
Seems like everywhere I go
The more I see, the less I know
But I know one thing, that I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you

I've been a lot of places all around the way
I've seen a lot of joy and I've seen a lot of pain
But I don't want to write a love song for the world
I just want to write a song about a boy and girl
Junkies on the corner always calling my name
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games
When I saw you getting down, well I hoped it was you
And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true

I say hey, I be gone today
But I be back around the way
Seems like everywhere I go
The more I see, the less I know
But I know one thing, that I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you

Now I'm not a highly metaphysical man
But I know when the stars are aligned
You can bump into a person in the middle of the road
Look into their eyes and you suddenly know
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
Dancing in the night in the middle of June
My Momma told me don't lose you
'cause the best luck I had was you

I say hey, I be gone today
But I be back around the way
Seems like everywhere I go
The more I see, the less I know
But I know one thing, that I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you

And I said rocking in the dance hall, moving with you
I said hey momma, hey momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said hey trippa hey trippa close to you
Rocking in the dance hall, moving with you
I said hey Momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall I said, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma

My Momma told me don't lose you
'cause the best luck I had was you
And I know one thing, that I love you

I say hey, I be gone today
But I be back around the way
Seems like everywhere I go
The more I see, the less I know
But I know one thing for sure
I love you, I love you, I love you

This is all, Alright. It's freaking 4am now. & NDZ! Argh! Say want accompany me sleep:x end up you sleep ler :x Gah! HAHAHA! Okay luhh i understand you tahan for me so long liao, This time let you off ;p FFP! (: Now is i accompany you to bed hao bu hao :/ Hhehehe! Alright goodnight peeppeeps

Peaceout,
Now i know, I'm just something for you to use, play & let you to call a 'Fool'
Ps;
Martin Ong misses me that's why can't sleep! Fag!

I can't bare

2010-02-12T06:18:00.000-08:00

Awesome movie! Rate, 5/5 Go watch it's crazy funny, meaningful & full of love(:
I know i know, I said that i'll be hiding somewhere. Well alot things have been up in my mind. & I don't want people to know that so i was hiding. Well, Today was awesome fun so yeah I'll blog it up for you people to know? Well, I won't promise to always be blogging here. After this month or so then I'll review where was i alright? ^^ Cute or what? Gah! Alright, Today niniwowo came over to my place in the morning (: Waste time, cook for niniwowo & when to LYPS to fetch my brother. Well, after what i saw i really feel that 'Who are you'? You're practically treating me like i'm nothing. & FYI trust me. You think that i don't know, actually i know. You think i know, actully i know more then you ;) [ Shut my bloody mouth up ] Fetch my brother ate my lunch. Came home & slept all the way. Sweet huh, ;] Huggles!
Evening plusplus, When to downtown.& Watch (Valentine Day) With nandini. Brought my Contacts solution^^v Like Fianaly! Love nandini luhh(L) Wanted to head to Yishun ( Knn you sweet luhh want surprise me )^^ But sorry ley D: I couldn't head down. Now almost 11pm ler & i just reach home i rush there come back sure mama kpkb de :x Sorry yeah. Well meet up tomorrow to watch ( Valentine day ) Hehehehehehehehe^^v
Even though i watched it like a few hours before. But fucking nice luhh i want watch again! But idk where to watch ley (...) HAHAHAHA! Aiya see 1st yeah(:
Alright i'll be going to bed soon. must wait for people accompany me to bed ler D: Shag huh :x ^^ Whatever luhh! (: HOHOHOHOHO!
Goodnight lovelove! (l)Love die you!
Gekpeng is sick sick ): Awwwww, I want bao bao :x

Peace out,
If you treat me like i'm nothing if you treat me like I'm just a toy. Here i am treating you the same from now on. The game has just been started_|_

Waiting for your call

2010-02-10T00:26:00.001-08:00

Did i just screwed it up?

Fly.Fly.Fly.Fly.Fly. Flown away. g-yellowelephant.onsugar.com & gorgeous-yellowelephant.blogspot.com I will not be posting any post these days. Will be hiding somewhere. ^^v Will be back alright? Stay tune.
xoxo, I miss Larry !

You've disappeared away from me

2010-02-09T05:27:00.000-08:00

I'll be standing here alone

I don't feel your soul around me anymore

2010-02-08T06:33:00.001-08:00

Gekpeng,很伤心

I am Momo

2010-02-06T22:25:00.000-08:00

Alright this post will include yesterday & today. Reason being yesterday post was C.R.A.P! ^^v
& Yes I've just notice that, Blogger time & date is always fked up :x So Yeah I'll try to remember to type in the date & time everything yeah?
Today, Sunny.
Sunday, 7Febuary2010
2.32pm

I just got home & just finish showering. I fell alsep?! When i was working. :x I'm just simply too tired ):
Anyway, Yesterday. For my 1st effing life I've never work in such environment! There's no Airconditioner, & Just filled iwth all the aunties >: Oh my gosh! I just felt like begging them stop asking for discount when I'm not the fking boss-,- & Please my boss is so (...) Anyway, After work head down to Airport T2 Gloride cafe to study ^^ Nandini, Rara & i only. Seriously, just the three of us? Never to study today?! Throughout the whole noon, mainly Rara was looking at her type of guy & So was i. As per usual my eyes just lays on whites $: & For Rara. i won't want to say much. But yeah ( Chauffer )<< To you Rara^^ HAHAHA!
Roughly 7 Plus 'Cika'< Sorry, i forgotten how to spell your name>.<
Cika came & fetch Rara off^^ So nandini & i was all alone :x As though as we're some lost Tourist. Gah! Send Nandini to T1 & I head down to T3 go down to bedok meet mommy. (:
Sorry for not meeting up with my friends las night D: Hope you guys had fun though ^^.
As for today, Surprise Surpirse I'm home?! It's so rare for me to be home at this point of time. Well, I'm super super tired! So give me a break to sleep please!
Work was tiring, & There's this guy. Gosh you're so fking furmiliar & you kept staring at me i think you know who was i? Why didn't you tell me?! -,- Hahahaha! I'm mad. But yeah, his like one of my brother but i'm not sure to say he is? Oh well. Nice to meet him though? ;o
I'll be heading out with my mom later tonight or late afternoon. I'm going to bed now ;D
I know my post today is weird & fked up. Please bare with it.
I'll update later tonight or not.

Peaceout
Shouldn't have

Sorry

2010-02-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

I miss those time when i was care free all around you. Thinking that it'll never end. But now as time goes by everyday I'm living with fear. I know i never did deserve you, i know it's all my fault. I don't feel right. I'm just feeling very uneasy. I just simply feels that i ruin your relationship. & I'm deeply sorry for what i've done. I'm still loving you dearly. Why?

I will post more tomorrow after my work. No mood post now. Too focus on niniwowo? ;o
Peaceout
^^v

我不配

2010-02-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

Old peekch with Qianyi when we was working at suki :/
Awesome awesome day ^^v
School. B.O.R.I.N.G! -,- Slept slept play play (: Skipped red cross.
When to meet mom & pass aunt some stuff. Head home showered get changed & when out ^^ Tampanies all day long. Was crazily shopping every where around ^^ v Wooo! Love shopping with mom, We were like bonding ;D OH YEAH! (Winks)But main point is that what ever i want & when i'm at the counter * Kaching* My heart won't beat! HAHAHA! Mommy pays for all ^^ Oh yeah! Shopped for the whole effing day! Happy to the max! Hope Titus problem will get better. & YYYYYYYYYY Birthday coming ohs! ^^v
Grrrr! I'm working tomorrow! -,- Fuck! 6am have to get up reach Geylang at 7am-,- _|_ Retarded! Work all the way to 1pm head down to Airport^^ Handsome whites ( Winks ) Rush down to bedok meet mommy. Continue with my shopping again :x
Maybe at night heading down to Geylang meet YYYYYYYYYY^^ Fatfat miss me ley!
That will be my plan for tomorrow ^^v I will try to get picture alrights? Lazy post now (: Love today ttm!
Curiosity kills the cat /: Leave me alone you fker_|_

Peace out!
I missed you the whole day, But maybe it doesn't even matters to you.

Always knew that when we said goodbye
It wouldn't last forever
Always thought that I'd run into you
And we'd get back together........

Now you're here
Just like I imagined
But never once did it cross my mind
That you could move on.......

You've found someone
It breaks my heart
Cuz you're so in love

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that
And I wish that I had you
the way that she has
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

I think somebody's tryin' to talk to me
But I can't hear a word they're saying
All I can do is stare at you
I don't even know why I'm staying
Never thought, I'd cry to see you Happy Its Just I Thought that your happiness
Was right here with me

I know we're through
It's no use
Still I can't help but feel......

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that (make you smile like that)
And I wish that I had you
The way that she has you (the way that she has)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind (I left behind)
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

[Chorus]
The way that she has you (oh)
I wish that was me (I wish that was me)
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
There's no place on earth
That I'd rather be (rather be)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

I used to be right beside you (oh no)
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart (oh no)
I put our love upon a shadow
But now it's gone
Cuz you belong to someone else.......

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that (I wish I was her)
And I wish that I had you
The way that she has you (the way that she has you babe)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left (I Left Oh I Left Behind)
Oh I wish I was her (I wish I was her)
And you were mine (oh I wish you were mine)

Oh I wish that were me (Oh I Wish That Was Me)
There's no place On earth
That I'd rather be (That I'd Rather Be)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

Oh...oooo

Depressing

2010-02-02T23:04:00.000-08:00

This is the post for yesterday. Didn't post it up because.. I forgets to.
Yesterday when to school with a swollen eyes & ugly face :x Thanks to haikal to accompany me to school. Also nema & etc on the way to school. Yeah i cried all the way in the bus:/ ANything wrong with that ? _|_ School practically suck! Didn't had any mood to do anything. My baby boy D: Well, till afternoon wanted to go for cremation with Qianyi But it fucking cost like _|_ :/ So yeah, we thought of some other thing. Will tell you guys when i'm done with it. Thanks to Qian yi accompany & all. Made my appetited back & i started smiling ^^
Head home with Qian yi to my place for dinner. & Of course send her back home. Just to the train station though. Send her of & meet niniwowo! Fuck he got me a Hamster! :'D Tears of joy luhh! But neh i didn't cry like shock happy & touch! I didn't expect him to so wu xim ley :/ But yeah, I better stop yeah? >: Grr! Anyway thanks a million niniwowo! I will treasure it^^ By the way, fyi His name is ' Santino ' Cute yeah?! I'll take a picture of it & post it up tomorrow alright ^^
Back to my baby Gino Ng! D:
I'll always have you in my heart you'll forever be my one & only love! My 1st baby boy & my most adored baby boy! Mummy love you precious boy.
Rest in peace. 02 Febuary 2010 , 17.15pm! I will never stop loving you! D':
xoxo!
妈妈会永远爱你!

Alright & now i'll elaborate my day for today yeah?
Morning run, Super tired wanted to hide & sleep but yeah i have to led the way _|_
Geography, Had test:/ Sleep half way & throughout.Trust me i've got no confident ( I got home work though )
Social studies, Deep alseep. Last 5Min got my notes copied^^v
Physic, Day dreaming, or did i even sleep? But was it a dream :o I'm a F.A.I.L.U.R.E!
Recess, On the phone with niniwowo
Chemistry go through my test paper. & Did some worksheets.
Chinese, Talk talk talk! & Did my Workbook.
Mtahs, Copied notes & talk to Jerelyn throughout:x Had test. Hahaha! It's a definate F.A.I.L ^^v
Head home alone, when to central fetch my stupid retarded brother & now here i am. Looking at some stuff that pissed me off (: Yeah yeah i'm pissedover you _|_ FUCKER!
Don't want talk about it liao luhh! Watse my energy typing to you :x Shit cvnt-,- _|_
I'll post a little more tonight i suppose? If i'm bored? Alright now. Had an awesome day^^v
Love,

Peaceout!
I still can't forget Gino!

Gino can you please wake up D:

2010-02-02T02:55:00.001-08:00

To my dearest baby boy, Gino Ng!
It's been pass 2years. & Now, Today. 02 February 2010, 17.15pm
I love you so much D: Can you please wake up D: Even i know it's impossible. Thank you for being mine.
& Thanks for those who came down to see if i'm okay. Calling to know if i'm fine. I appreciate it alot!
God bless you my baby boy! Rest in peace! I love you

Peaceout,
Gekpeng will never believe you ever again!

You failed me once again

2010-01-31T15:44:00.000-08:00

Woke up superior early. Not going to school today. Niniwowo suppose to be at my place by now. But apparently niniwowo is deep asleep:x Stupid fker-,-! HAHAHA! Well i suppose he silent his phone or his really tired so yeah! We'll see how our plans go now :x Crap shit stupid boy! ^^ Anyway hope today plans wil still be running well(: Will post more later tonight[:

Peaceout
Orchard hotel-,- You L.A.M.E!

Time check, 9.26pm
Today was awesome^^ Will not forget this day. I don't want to talk much about it.

Peaceout, 011209

Awake & have enough

2010-01-30T19:17:00.000-08:00

Don't mind me this should be a long post? & My dear guardian angel. Where have you been? Sms me once you read this? D: Don't bother to read this post for today? I will only be typing craps. I don't know why whenever i read it i just felt like a fucking shit whore! Oh well. Like what my precious angel told me Love is just unexpected love is just surprising. & Like what myself said before no matter what love is something pure & innocent & how people have been abusing it. So this time I'm not going to blame love. As i understand the concept of it now. Whenever i read what i need to read it just make me stronger maybe that's how i can recover. & Yeah you're right if that love belong to me it will always be loving me. if not i can just take it as a childish game^^ No matter how tough it is I've to know life is just full of colours. & Depending on how i want it to be coloured. Aren't I'm right? This time over this experience i will only take it as a short story. I'll be finish reading it soon & weather there will be a part two or not no one knows. But all I'm trying to say is that. Treasure what god gave you cherish what you have. Not to take anything for granted & love it like it's your last day on earth. OMG! Once my angel read this he sure will be fucking happy! Must treat me hor the course! ;D Woooohoooo! I'm go proud of gekpeng! ^^
In the end it will only reflect on how much this love is & how much it's worth to be^^ Cute huh?! I know how to say all this! What a smart girl i am. True always believing in god but i know i will always have to depend on myself. It's my life, god will lead me through but i have to walk through it my own. & This is how I'm loving life. I'm loving to live this life & life is loving to live me.
I'm happy enough to have everything I've got. I'm not going to ask for more. I'm just going to love what i have! Yoooohooooooo! So until now you people reading do you feel that I'm just wasting your time? Sorry D: But I've told you not to read-,- I.D.I.O.T^^ Anyway for those who is always stalking me & knowing about my every move. Thanks alright. I'm all fine now. I've thought through everything i had to thought through. & You guys are right. Every story have an ending. It will either be a sad one or a happy one. Of course it will show the moral of the story. Is it a love story, a lie, friendship, & etc. So I'm just waiting for my ending. Have anyone got the feeling of finally knowing you'll be finishing your book & got very excited? This is where I'm standing. Loving this story, doesn't want it to end, yet wanting to know the ending, expected the ending, yet wondering it might be something unexpected. Feeling superior asghjkrteydxbcf ! Hehehehe! I'm mad! ;D
Alright alright, I'm done over my rubbish. These are the plans for my 2010. Kinda slow i know:x
-Getting my good grades.
-Shopping with love.
-Going out to study with love.
-Visit Nanas more often.
-Help Nanas to baby sit more often.
-Work more & save more $$
-Bring mom out for a ladies night.
-Do well for my N's.
-Being with my babies & they'll always be happy.
-Finish my french course.
-Going on to SPCA OR Mutts&Kitten.
-Registering for the Orphanage home & old folks home.
-If enough age, ( Donate my blood )
-If enough age, ( Signing the form to give away my healthy organs if anything happen to my life )
-Getting a awesome 16 Birthday
-Flying to two of my mysterious country.
-Spending this year with all Laughter's & Smiles!

This is all i need to do for this year^^ Alright i'll be going to work soon;D Love ya'll(: Update tonight yeah +]

Peaceout,
xoxo!

Back home from work. Time check, 10.52pm
All i can say is work, FUN ^^ Everything okay.
Thanks for your concern,
Your's truly
Crash me like how have just did

Crash me like how i thought it will always be

2010-01-29T17:09:00.000-08:00

Bluetooth me your love & warmth.

Back from the doctors! Superior tired :x i got 3Days of Mc! (: Woohoo! Will be going to work later on at 1pm ^^ Hehhehe!
I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. Because at the moment i know that i still have you. Which is more the enough.

Peaceout,
Abandon

It's more then enough for me to be your past tense

2010-01-29T00:34:00.000-08:00

School was alright No mood to talk :x Let the picture talk ^^

Peaceout
_|_ Love

I'm so scared to lose you, is it weird?

2010-01-27T23:16:00.001-08:00

School was T-I-R-I-N-G!
Geogrpahy studied^^
Social Studies almost falling asleep:/
Physic Had test but i slept D:
Chemistry Studied :s
Chinese falling asleep :%
Maths Did revision paper 1 ^^
Head home, Called niniwowo (L)(L)(L)(L)

Still on the phone with niniwowo, & his fucking singing :/ Gosh-,- HAHAHA! Alright will update more tonight i suppose?

Time check 11.05pm
Just when down to meet niniwowo :/ Gosh my mom is such a busy body): Anyway, hate it when you see my ugly face D: but i don't know why i just couldn't resist it. But i know i pratically wasted your time for coming down. I don't know, i was just very scared that i'll like let it all out. &Yeah you're what i need the most. But luckily nothing much happened. I don't know why, But that stone on my chest is still there..But as for what people say, What is there but be crying for when i know for long the fact? Maybe i'm just disappointed in myself? I told myself to left a gap in between & maybe i have already filled it long ago. I've nothing to say for myself. Like wise i want him to know, i didn't regret nor blame anything on him. So please don't say sorry. That's not what i want to hear. I'm the one that i should say sorry. Sorry for being such a burden. I will always try my best not to let you see what i did tonight. I won't do it. I'm sorry.
My heart is just tearing it self up my heart is just holding everything on my heart is loving you deeply but my heart should learn to know when everything should stop. & It's soon.
I hate my fucked up emotion. I hate it so much, how i wish i don't have any emotions or even better I'm deaf & mute. I don't have to hear lies i don't have to be heart broken. I don't have to talk shit i don't have to reply shit. How i wish,
As per usual,
Dear God.
I'm sick & tired of all this. But i love all this. I feel so troubled. I don't like what i'm having. I want you i need you to take my back. This is pointless.

Peaceout,
Forever never comes around

Last day being with Daniel

2010-01-27T02:47:00.000-08:00

Alright those pictures was for yesterday. Last day Daniel trip in singapore or i should say the Asia trip^^ Well, When out with him after school. Rushing like crazy :X! Hahaha! Met him at the train station & when over to the library and return my books. Was talking all the way, it was coolies ^^ & Funny^^. Wanted to have pizza but downtown only have the delivery one so yeah no air coniditioner. & So when over to 'BBQ Chicken' His seriously a scary eater! Hahahaha! He ate like a monster! :/ Gosh! I had soup & pepsi! Wanted to watch movie after our meal but yeah there isn't much movies on so we played bowling ^^ Cool huh!? it was crazy fun. yeah yeah! He won-,- Hate him to the max! D: Gah! When to the beach chit chat. Wanted to go over my place for dinner but neh his shy :x F.R.E.A.K! (: Hehehe! Send him back to whitesands & had burger king. Of course that's all. He had to go back early for today flgihts, so yeah D: Well hope to see him real soon. & Of course be a good boy yeah?! Hehehe!
reached home talk to niniwowo, love him to the max! As per normal slept together! ;D grrr! Well that was how my day was.
As for today it's kinda tiring day. No idea why. But yeah when to school.
-D&t was good. Met Mr Wong expectation.
-Physic. No idea what i did.
-Recess. Chit chat.
-Chemistry. Had test it was cool.
-Elective moudle was F-U-N! Did nail art with Qianyi.
^^
Head home right away. Shower superior fast & rushed. Niniwowo was waiting for me down my block so yeah. Sorry ley D:
When over to whitesands & see the vet in PLC for Gino D: He caught a cold D: & My heart is fucking pain! Feel like crying _|_ D':
Had Ramen while niniwowo was like not eating! -,- Hate you D:
When the library to return Syameem book. & send niniwowo off. When over to central & Rot alone_|_ I'm insane :x 6plus mom called & asked where i was so yeah told me to wait for her. Crappy face! Gah! Yeah waited waited fucking long fetched brother home & Yup I'm here now. Alright, nothing much to talk about now. Today is boring :/

Peaceout,
Love my pictures!

Time check, 9.45pm.
I'm fucked bored! R-O-T-T-E-D! At home today D: _|_ Grrrrr! Nothing much, Was at my block downstiars talking on the phone saw some friends chat & fucked! :x Really am tired now. Being spam on msn :/ I'll sleep now. Love yarhs!

I need something but nevermind

2010-01-26T06:43:00.000-08:00

Dear God,
If god you can her me, can you please just take me out of here D:
I want to submit my life back. Take it back please.
Today is awesome. Will upload the pictures up tomorrow.

Peaceout,
I don't want gekpeng

Barcode to my heart

2010-01-24T23:24:00.001-08:00

Let's elaborate about yesterday yeah? Yesterday was weird & daring i should say? O.o! Please don't ask me why:x Goodness me! Morning when to get breakfast for bother & met met niniwowo^^ Head home with niniwowo etc etc! ^^ Send niniwowo to work & head home prepare for work ^^ Work was tiring at the beginning seriously tired! D: So yeah! Was hyper & dead i shall say. Evening time was fooling around with lemon grass G.A.Y.S! -,- Shag:x HAHAHA! Played here & there time flies ;D After work when over to whites sands hall way to wait for niniwowo for dinner! Waited for like fucking 55Min's-,- But yeah ast least i was accompanied by phone^^ Had dinner at 'Just acia' Had something as per usual^^ & Rushed home. Due to my house that 'Gangster' Nagging -,-! That was how my day when yesterday. Fast wired interesting new tiring lovely ^^
As for today, School school lesson lesson;D When to school with Diydiy^^ F.U.N! Had d&t and phew! I'm still on track! (: So chit chat with nigel, martin, zaki, yongjin, & jun xiang! Kinda stupid random shit chat but yeah better then nothing! H-A-P-P-Y F-A-C-E!^^ When back to class for recess chit chat & pissed niniwowo off D: Sorry D: Math's lesson was stupid Rara & i was like talking about my husband (A-M-A-B-O) & Her husband will be Taufu! Aren't we L.A.M.E? Gosh thinking back i feel stupid * Laughs at myself* English lesson was next, Listen to Mr Keh talking about diagnostic speech & Mm will be coming to class this Friday? O.o but yeah whatever Miss him so much! Fall a sleep for sometime & waking up knowing that I'm already in Social Studies class :X Yeah i Suck! I know-,- Did my copying of notes & paying attention^^ Home was next! (:
Thanks to,
Adam,
Jon,
Bryan &
Marcus. To sms me for the whole fukcinfg day^^ Random shit chat though^^ Geeeeeee!
Will be heading down to Bedok & Amk later on(:
Update more tonight alrights? & Yes contact me back please, Daniel! Sorry my cerdit ran out that's why my call drop. Apologies! D:

Peaceout, Badass tattoo!

You'll be my secret admirer for tonight

2010-01-22T18:33:00.000-08:00

Woke up fucking early i meant early early like 5am! Yeah I'm crazy up there! Fuck! But i don't know why i woke up with an excited hippy mood ^^ Is it a good thing? Should be yeah? Hehhehe! Had been planning what to do, so yeah. These are the things to be done by the end of next week!
*Meet up Daniel!
*Meet up Bryan ( For the mutts & kitten thingy )
*Jio people out to study
*Bring baby to the vet
*Meet up krystal
*Shopping spreee!
Done, this will be my current plans^^
Currently on the phone ^^ Msning^^ Smsing^^ Fuck Daniel! Call me you cunt! ;D Gah! I'm high I'm hyper! Suck it out! :D
Cant wait to for work work work^^ But fuck still cannot find anyone to accompany me D: Hope Daniel will? But aiya_|_ He come Singapore only 5days-.- Forget it. Jio people out like ps D: all stay so far_|_ Knn! Hate them! Arghh! Piss me off! Arghhh! D: Nevermind luhh you all promise me accompany me talk on the phone liao hor, pb! Better keep your promise^^ I feel like going to clubbing :x how huh?! Gosh! D: Hate this feeling! D: Nevermind luhh! Lets get craazy! Pee in the bushes! Fuck on the tree! Touch in the public! Smack your ass infront of a baby girl! Fuck i'm bored!
-,-
Alright, going to work soon. Take care my little hippy bippy babies!
Ai si ni men! Mwah!

Peaceout, If today my day gets ruin then you'll never find yourself waking up in your bedroom^^

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Time check 10.38pm
When got back home^^ Today i can say is a alright day D:
Superior happy! Finally met Daniel! Fuck you're tall! What the fuck you ate? HAHAH! When to work at 1plus^^ &Met him up 2-3plus?
Yup, when to white sands & fetch Daniel^^ Wooo! & Head to downtown& had our Mr chicken rice(: Cool huh! ^^ Yeah & fetch him back to whitesands! Woooooo! Cool yeah! Well i when back to my work place & continue working(: It was seriously boring but yeah, Work is work what else can i do yeah? So yeah i sms-ed though;P Hehehe! Thanks to those people who accompany me throughout the day & also called me like you guys promised^^ Well after 8 when to whitessands & waited for him for dinner had mac & head home.
While walking through those paths way alone, why do i felt restless. Why did i stopped half way why did tears burst out :x Why every step i take makes me want to give up when every breathe i take makes the stone on my heart heavier. Why every step i take i find it impossible. Why, do i just feel that i should just give it up. Why am i so restless, why does the stone on my chest is getting heavier? how long more can i hold on to. I'm scared, I'm worried, I'm terrified, I'm petrified.
Should i just stop & burst everything out? No, I, gekpeng! Will hold this pain hold this misery & will never let my weakness shown. I'll be fine i'll be fine.
I wanna send Daniel off! Grrr! Dx Alright, i'll be going back to bed now ^^Goodnight love!

Peaceout, Turn it all around

It's not that,

2010-01-22T00:52:00.001-08:00

Sorry for not posting anything yesterday but just a picture D: I was lazy to post but now thinking back asking me to edit it i really have forgotten what i've did yesterday. So I'm really sorry. Anyway, School was better then usual.
*Had reading period in the hall B.O.R.I.N.G. But yeah i was chit chatting all the way ^^
*Maths, studied a new chapter & also talking away with jerelyn & Rara my love! (:
*Chinese, was studying the news paper article thingy & chit chatting
*Social Studies, studied studied! *fuuuuuuyoooooooh*
*Recess, when to do some shit stuff waste my time :/
*Geography, studied studied!
*English,when around the school with Renee!
*After school wanted to go CP but 2bus full-,- & took like fucking long! so head to PP! ;D awesome still though
*2.40pm when back to school for physic lesson ^^ Renee eh my nehneh :x Fuck! Honry bitch!
*Head home right after school ( Totally forgotten about Red Cross)_|_
*Should be heading down to AMK later ^^ That's all nothing much to talk about now-.-
Actually was so fucking happy then now(SHAG)! Cause of some ass-,- Ohoh! Daniel is like FUCKING IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!! Meet up meet up!

Peaceout,
I love it when you call

Time check, 11.28pm Just got back home from AMK-,-
Stupid bus ride home ^^ When to parsa mahlam (?) & Head home. R.E.T.A.R.E.D!
Currently smsing & msning ^^
Everything was just a dream, & little show. A dream that will end a show that will end. I don't know but i'm kinda excited for the day to come yet... Well, Every day i myself will just know that the story the show the dream will be ending soon. & I myself will know that all the while was nothing but just a dream, a show, a story. Well, I'm kinda fucked but i'm not gonna bother much. The pain i will carry that misery i will hold the tears i will not let you see.
I'm fucking tired will update tomorrow^^ Love!

S.C.H.O.O.L

2010-01-21T01:12:00.000-08:00

Cool or what?

2010-01-19T16:50:00.000-08:00

woo, I just simply love blogging in school. I'm bored i'm stress right now :/ Gah! Smsing ^^ & Of course talking. Yet working hard on my d&t alright? That's why i'm on the pc-,- You idiot! Stupid zaki come disturb :x Alright yeahyeah! Zaki Like sweet(: Only some people will understand such! Grrr! Anyway, Yeah back to d&t why is it so stressful? I just don't get it:x & what i'm interested in is just simply to difficult _|_ Isn't it? Anyway will be having Physic next, recess, chemistry & beauty class! Wooo! Afterwards i've got to work at 4pm D: Still can't find anyone for company D: Oh well, Pity those who will be working with me then (:
....I don't know what to type :[ But i want to type ? Does anyone understand such feelings? Maybe i'm just tryiong to hide from my d&t project but still knowing that i can't hide long. Oh well. I only care about the current activity ^^ Argh! Can anyone like safe me?! Pisspisspiss! Stupid d&t :x But yeah there's no one to blame but me myself cause i choose such _|_me alright! & Yeah nigel pratically gave up what a L.O.S.E.R( Hush up )
What else should i type? Zaki say his sad D: Aww poor boy! D: Zaki cute :x Said by him^^ Gaghhh! I'm B.O.R.E.D! B.O.R.E.D! B.O.R.E.D!
Aiya fuck alright! I'm go do my work now, no more fooling around. Will update later tonight after work ^^ L.O.V.E you peeps peeps! Zaki is so being L.A.M.E! & For zaki don't copy me trust me i'll S.L.A.P you hard!

Peaceout,
STRESS

Time check, 8.47pm Just got home from work. Thanks for B to accompany me throughout ^^ It's so sweet of you! Am very tired:x Idk why D: Somehow, i want time to freeze somehow i want those days to come :x Why am i so screwed up? Argh! I'm a irritating bitch_|_ Hate me a million :x (Neh) I've nothing much to talk about, seriously just now mood. idk why D: Working was fun with lemon grass people ^^ Love you guys to the max!Alright i'll make a move now.
Bye peoples!

Peaceout,
Love Gino & Evelina!

How long am i able to hold on?

2010-01-19T00:33:00.000-08:00

-When to school too early, Sleep until got called down for Assembly.
-PE did Table tennis
-Geography Mdam Chia didn't attend for lesson so Miss Lee took over, Chit chat
-Chinese, Did comprehension & talk rubbish
-Recess, was on the phone in class
-English, Got sleepy:X Lay & slept awhile. & Started talking/learning japanese like a retard! Grrr
-Pc, was weird. Did target setting again :x & something weird+stupid!
-Assembly, Nurse teacher was talking crap so fell asleep.
-Home with Haikal ( Meet up half way )

Currently, watching clifford the big red dog. Going for a nap after this post:/ Days have been weird, crappy, upsetting, & emotional. Working tomorrow D: Hope people will accompany me through out i guess?
Alright i've got nothing much to post about now. Post tomorrow^^
-Xoxo

Peaceout, Unata

Tolerance level; V.High

2010-01-18T00:09:00.001-08:00

School boring:/
D&t working hard^^
Recess, Random fun with renee (:
Math's loving Rara ;D
English sleeping all the way :X
Social studies, sleep & chit chatting o:
Meet OM, Random Blah-ing %:
Head home with syameem, crapping >.<

Home now, & yes HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER NG ZE XIANG Hopefully he'll behave well now since you're a year older ^^
Today have been quite a pissy! Again, i saw some S.H.I.T & F.U.C.K U.P. Rubbish!
Seriously, My tolerance level is VERY VERY VERY H.I.G.H. It seriously pisses me off, you know my hates on you is higher & higher. I trusted you once & twice But now i'm totally awake with all your lies. I might dislike you deeply but somehow i just felt the pain :x But yeah, Y.O.U.R.E. S.O N.O.T W.O.R.T.H.Y! Yeah so you don't deserve anyone respect you pb! Pui! -,- Like what i said you're just a H.Y.P.O.C.R.I.T.E!
I HATE YOUR GUTS I HATE YOUR GUTS I HATE YOUR GUTS I HATE YOUR GUTS I HATE YOUR GUTS! _|_
Now i've no mood to swear at you, so yeah. I'll post more about you some other time alright? _|_ Son of a bitch! D.O.G!
Ps, you're a W-E-A-K P-U-S-S-Y!
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Will be going out soon, am tired :x Post up more stuff later.

Peaceout,
Fuck you & your worthless lies

I wish i was blind

2010-01-16T16:36:00.000-08:00

I would not like to elaborate much about yesterday all i will say is, Work & movies^^ Trying to wake a pig up now, but neh let him sleep more (: Going to work @1pm. Should be bowling after work ;D
Alright, will update more later tonight? No mood update.
Ps, Sorry for not updating much. I don't have the mood to. But I'm thinking of vlogging now? :x Any recommendation?

Peaceout, If only.

S-I-C-K

2010-01-14T00:17:00.000-08:00

I am sick :/ Didn't attend school today & so will be tomorrow. Bored.Bored.Bored! W-t-f i got suspect on dengue again :x Rubbish, Gah! When to the doctor alone Mirical huh? But titus was there! Gosh, F-U-N! Q was superior long:x Wanted to just back off but yeah wait wait :x Blahblah! After the doctor when to get food & head back home, nap & fetch my lit brother. Seriously it's boring! Trust me! Well, will be heading down to school tomorrow to have lunch with my beloved friend (: Wooyeah! I want to go out! D: I'm just like living in a prison _|_ Anyway, i don't know why i just feel like posting my stuff back on blog :x Gah! Maybe i just feel safe here i suppose? & Yeah! Most likely i'll update this post later tonight ayes? Takecares love!
I don't know why but i just feel that i have gap in between you, i can't be myself when i know you around, i hate it. I hate it, when i saw those things i hate it when i hear those things. It just pisses me off so bad yet i have to act as though nothing had just happened.
I'm smiling in the outside hurting badly in the inside. Yet i don't need you to say it'll all be fine.

S-O-N-G!
Hey, soul sister by Train!
Hey, Hey, Hey,

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let
You blow my mind
Your sweet moon beam
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided
Whos one of my kind

Hey soul sister ain't that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
Heeey Heeeeey heeeey...

Just in time I´m so glad you have a one track mind like me
You gave my life direction
A game show love connection we can't deny
I´m so obsessed my heart is bound to beat right
Out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you like a virgin your Madonna
And I'm always gonna want to blow your mind

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight

Well you can cut a rug
Watching yous the only drug I need
Some gangster I'm so thug
You're the only one I'm dreaming of you see
I can be myself now finally
In fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you'll be with me

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
(Repeat)
Hey, Hey, Hey, Tonight

Peaceout,
You ain't worthy

Piss off you motherfucker!

2010-01-12T23:22:00.001-08:00

Haven't been posting much yeah? Oh well, Decided to post here ^^ Due to some reason (: The another & will soon be locked so is this. But yeah it will be release at times? I don't know. Anyway school suck like usual. Only for Elective Module. Had beauty lesson! Cool much? yeah! Oh yes, Look in the picture of zaki? Cute a not? HAHAHA! I tied for him! Wooo, & i can't believe he trust me to cut his hair:/ I don't even trust myself^^ But cute huh?! Wooooyeah!
Let's talk more about beauty class, It was FUN FUN FUN pictures are mostly there. We got our foam we washed, use the toner, clay musk, cucumber thingy & moisturise it. Learn some things like the steps for applying & stuff. It's seriously much more interesting then the boring old lesson time -,- All i can hear by then will be 'zzzzzzzzzzz' 'bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb' 'eeeeeeeeeeeeee' Hahahaha! Not to forget diyanah made cupcakes today & gave me my birthday prsent sweet or what?! (: Love you to the max girl!
Anyway nothing much now I'm home. Tummy still not feeling well so will benapping ^^ Had lunch made by mom ( Salmon Rice ) Wooyeah!
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& Gekpeng is pissed pissed pissed. Will not be telling why but just pissed. I saw what i need to see i heard what i had to hear & it only makes me want to ask you to fuck off! Trust me, Screw this shit! Sort your fucking shit out then say the truth i hate such a person like you! F.A.I.L.U.R.E! I hate you to the max! If you have the brains you'll know that i'm talking about you, but if you don't then seriosuly you're the fucker! Son of a bitch! -,-

Peaceout,
Screw up

Jumping away

2009-12-25T19:30:00.000-08:00

OUT OF THIS CLUB

2009-12-23T20:22:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARNABAS
Like what i typed, yeah happy birthday to you, ^^ 18 only don't action. Alright? HAHAHAHA. Hope tonight you'll have fun, drunk okay? Gahgah. All the best for your future and everything alright?^^
Grrr, ALright nothing much to type about now, just came home from central going to work soon. Gah, I'll be dead bored in a few hours time. After that will be watching Alivn and the chipmunks. Afterwards, see people drink talk and drunk. < Not sure if i'll be going. Feel like burden.
Nothing much to post up now, will be playing bowling with some sucker now on msn. Update later tonight i suppose?

Peaceout, FuckBurden

Body language

2009-12-23T04:31:00.000-08:00

I'm drop dead tired, Just finish working. In 3hours++ time will be some asshole birthday. Ohwell, Just hope he'll enjoy his birthday. I have thought through some stuff, yeah like what people always tell me, Not to think so much just live with what i have anything last min then think? Gahgah. Will be going out anytime soon for dinner. Super super super tired, This will be my post for today i suppose.

Peace out,
Fuckyeah

Can i run away?

2009-12-21T21:21:00.000-08:00

F.O.O.L
Gah, How i wish time will fly faster, the faster the better the better the faster. How i wish, i can run to somewhere far just to hide and once it's all cleared i'll be back. Wish is just a wish, i will still need to face the fact and walk through it. Fuck these bullshit, i really have got nothing much to say to myself, i have no idea what i'm wanting nor aiming at! Not feeling very well D: Can't be bothered though, As per usual the only place to hide is in my fantasy world. The only place to hide is somewhere, MIA take place. Hopefully i won't MIA one day. Will be working in 2 and a half hours time.
Hearing [ Wait for you - Elliot Yamin ]

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Ps, I'm only waiting for my fantasy dreams to come true. HAHAHA ;D I'll wait ^^
Peace out, Doesn't matter at all

Lost

2009-12-13T19:20:00.000-08:00

Back^^ Just using 'Bun' Lappy. Gosh his such a gay! Want cut don't want cut. But yeah, Idk having some things in my mind:/ Worying that i'll fall D: But neh, i don' think it matter to me. Those time i have already past what is there to be worried about hey?
These days was awesome, cause some one pei me! WOOOOYEAH! Thanks but idk D: Gosh, Life is just so complicated. Never mind it doesn't mattter to me anymore though? Just live through don't i? GAHGAH^^ idk when i'll fall but i know soon. Hopefully not? HAHAHAAHHAA i don't care nah!!! GRRRRRRR, Bored bored bored, 'BUNNY' hair being cut, Dragon cutting bunny cut. These days was fun, when to sentosa played and stuff. Wednesday woooyeah! Alright i better go now, i don't want bunny to read this.

Peace out,
Tears fail to be kept in.
I have a million of reasons to be upset.